Sunday, March 31, 2002
Newton wrote about this...for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction...the girls room is now tidy, very tidy in fact...I'm well impressed...now I seem to be getting grief because my bedroom is a mess...the fact that I get the (much) smaller room and hence am stuck for storage space seems to not count!! Life through a child's eyes...how simple eh?
Have spent evening (again) trying to fathom how to move my Blog onto my new site...and not atually having the guts to do it....am kinda scared of loosing everything....is this misplaced anxiety? The fact I can't actually host a simple picture on my own space and see it on blogspot site isn't encouraging me any.....Am now looking into includes which look like they may hold the key....but the words...well they confuse me y'kno!...that said am still enjoying working it all out :-))
How lovely...a day of playing and eating chocolate....and I even got some Blogging and Bloghopping in....and when told to tidy up the resultant mess in their bedroom they're off at it willingly and happily- Respect Ma 'thority Dude :-))
oh oh.....Eight From The Eighties and to lighten the spirits, I got a credt (cheers Deb)!
1) do you like mondays? Yeah I do actually, the start of a new week...either refreshed or knackered from a hopefully good weekend....time to right the wrongs and do the deeds again!
2) are you footloose? hmmmm...I love dancing, and often just dance aorund the house to music.....not sure if I'm good or not..I'm ok and I enjoy it and that's the main thing :-)
3) are you a smooth criminal? Nah, bit too honest me....tho' I have milked the odd 'issue with officialdom' to my advantage a few times!
4) when you call me, you can call me... Listener....or Neil...but am not too fussed about Neil (sorry folks!).
5) do you talk to strangers? yes. frequently, I like meeting new people :-)
6) have you ever had a one night love affair? errrrr....let's just say I wouldn't have described it as 'love' tho' was very....pleasant....is that incriminating enough ;-).
7) what sad songs make you cry? This Year's Loving - David Gray.
8) (My one ;-)) don't say a prayer for me now, save it til'... someone'll listen who can actually help!! Having suggested this one you'd have thought I'd have a decent answer wouldn't you ;-).
Which kinda led me back to this song by U2. A great site for U2 lyrics btw :-)
Peace on Earth - U2
Heaven on Earth
We need it now
I'm sick of all of this
Hanging around
Sick of sorrow
I'm sick of the pain
I'm sick of hearing
Again and again
That there's gonna be
Peace on Earth
Where I grew up
There weren't many trees
Where there was we'd tear them down
And use them on our enemies
They say that what you mock
Will surely overtake you
And you become a monster
So the monster will not break you
And it's already gone too far
Who said that if you go in hard
You won't get hurt
Jesus can you take the time
To throw a drowning man a line
Peace on Earth
Tell the ones who hear no sound
Whose sons are living in the ground
Peace on Earth
No whos or whys
No one cries like a mother cries
For peace on Earth
She never got to say goodbye
To see the color in his eyes
Now he's in the dirt
Peace on Earth
They're reading names out
Over the radio
All the folks the rest of us
Won't get to know
Sean and Julia
Gareth, Ann, and Breda
Their lives are bigger than
Any big idea
Jesus can you take the time
To throw a drowning man a line
Peace on Earth
To tell the ones who hear no sound
Whose sons are living in the ground
Peace on Earth
Jesus in this song you wrote
The words are sticking in my throat
Peace on Earth
Hear it every Christmas time
But hope and history won't rhyme
So what's it worth
This peace on Earth
Peace on Earth
Peace on Earth
Peace on Earth
I have been giving the Sunday Samaritan some thought when I was reading some Israeli focussed web-sites and seen the sadness following recent events there and tried to offer some kind words and hopes for peace soon. Lots of thoughts to Cupid Girl, Chleo and Lorien in particular.
This is a work in progress but a few things tonight....related/unrelated...just make me want to post it now.......
When the mist descends,
On me again,
I feel confused...
But feel no pain,
You loved me then,
And I was sane,
I was left alone,
In this pouring rain,
And your words are clear,
They will not wane
I'm heading off,
On another train
And still they come..
So clear, so plain
The wheels pick up
Their haunting refrain
Persistently
Again...
Again...
Again...
Saturday, March 30, 2002
Ah, the joys of being the Easter Bunny :-))
So Lynnise has emailed me to say she's decided to stop Blogging....which is a shame as I was hugely enjoying her site. Anyhow Lynn I've removed the link, if you do check back at all leave a Flooble to say hi and good luck :-))
Friday, March 29, 2002
Oh gosh...have been so busy I haven't had time to Blog half the stuff I have wanted to Blog and do half the things I have wanted to do. Still I am on holiday now for a week and am planning some quality PC time in amongst the RL stuff I want to do too. So some uick references which I'll maybe expand on later:
I really enjoyed the look, feel and content of Pegasong's site and dropped a comment saying so on it. I see you've been visiitng and thank's for the comments advice and link to this site from yours!
This is a very clever, captivating thing, whereas this is very similar methinks but is wholly irritating!
K am off to visit the sites I read and then off to bed as I am tired!
I have just remembered its Friday Five time!
1. If you could eat dinner with and "get to know" one famous person (living or dead), who would you choose? I think it would have to be Bono of U2, I just so admire his ability to write music and especially lyrics….I’d like to know where he draws the inspiration from etc.
2. Has the death of a famous person ever had an effect on you? Who was it and how did you feel? Princess Diana’s death had a huge impact at the time, as for most people really….more recently Ben Hollioake’s death in a road accident serves as a reminder about how precious and important life is and how easily it can all slip away.
3. If you could BE a famous person for 24 hours, who would you choose? I think its Bono again….or a similar rock star…I have always secretly longed to be a rock start….and but for lacking the charisma, ability to sing and not knowing how to play any musical instrument I think I could have made it ;-)
4. Do people ever tell you that you look like someone famous? Who? Jeremy Paxman [ :o( ], Elvis Costello/Jarvis Cocker but only since I got me new specs…in fact only because of the specs really.
5. Have you ever met anyone famous? Yes, Jarvis Cocker in Heathrow once, I chatted briefly to him and got his autograph but really made a idiot of myself as I was really nervous and just spoke complete Bollocks :o))
Yuk! Get me in a pub and I just can't leave ;-) went for a quick drink after work to let the Easter traffic die down and ended up staying...sleeping on a mates floor...and waking up with a hangover :-( still all me own fault so am not really complaining and it was kinda fun. K I'm off to get the girls....have loads I want to Blog which can wait till later I guess.
Thursday, March 28, 2002
hrumph....I seem to have deleted the wrong entry by mistake and can't see in edit mode the last entry below which I meant to edit! D'oh!
Anyhow the deleted one was somehing like.....anyone got any ideas how to ftp from my new hosted site to this one so that I can keep all these posts? When you sign up a new blog you choose to use blogspot or ftp, but once chosen I cannot see how to change it...It makes a comment on the set-up page where you make this choice that if you select blogspot you can change to your host site later....but doesn't tell you how...I'm confused!
Wednesday, March 27, 2002
I love this song....the ....the power and passion and rawness and......abondonment......of that thing called love...sorry but i do!
You Got Me - Sleeper
you got me yeah
you got me yeah
whenever you want me yeah
whenever you want me yeah
you got me
you're not alone you got me
you know whenever you want me yeah
whenever you want me yeah
i'll breath with you leave with you
when everyone else is gone
we'll leave a door open a glass broken
a perfume of rain on an ocean of calm
i'll drink like you think like you
when everyone else is wrong
we'll tear their seams open
a small token lying around
like a bruise on their arms
ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh
i'll stay with you all day with you
whenever you're incomplete
i'll be a match for you a deep scratch
when your gravity's gone and your full of defeat
i'll lie with you a spy with you
whenever you're on your own
i'll be around for you a clown for you
a cord you can pull
when you're falling too fast
A cry for help! So I have a new, own hosted site! But I want to keep the entries I have made here on my new site. when you sign up for a new site it says you can select a blogspot account or an ftp one. under blogspot it says you can change later.....but can you change and still keep your old blog entries? That is the question I am pondering...if i had more confidence I am sure I could test this....but if it didn't work...how wld I know it was because it doesn't work or because I had mucked up! :-))))
Tuesday, March 26, 2002
Been working on this for a while, big thanks to Sue-b for the first two lines...a misquoted lyric but I hope I do their potential justice!
Dawn of Realisation(for Sue)
You saw me when the glasses I wore
Were all I could afford
When we were only poor enough
To never end up getting bored
Now our eyes are opened
We turn and face the sun
Dawn of realisation
Falls on everyone
Time it keeps coming round
Its time to be moving on
You knew me when those books of mine
Gave me everything I knew
When life was such a simple thing
From the heights at which we flew
Now our eyes are opened
We turn and face the sun
Dawn of realisation
Falls on everyone
Time it keeps coming round
Its time to be moving on
You knew me when the things I said
Were all I ever meant
With nothing taken the wrong way
Clear messages were sent
Now our eyes are opened
We turn and face the sun
Dawn of realisation
Falls on everyone
Time it keeps coming round
Its time to be moving on
You know me now and where I go
This journey that I make
I am still guided by such things
And from them strength I take
Now our eyes are opened
We turn and face the sun
Dawn of realisation
Falls on everyone
Time it keeps coming round
Its time to be moving on
hmmm my entries are getting shorter and shor....
Cool!
Go Faeries!!
Take the What Faery Are You? Quiz!
This quiz was made by lia
As seen in Flooble I got hosted today and even managed to get a domain name that still features BrandNewStart!! Cheers all who guided me! I am very happy with this and hugely excited about working it all out and doing my own site. I just am and want it recorded so when I get narked with it 'cause I can't make it work I can come back here and renew my enthusiasm ;-)
This is a bright shiny new world (PCs and stuff) isn't it? With my new sound card I got several bits of s/w one of which plays videos on music cds! I never knew cds had videos on them too!!!!!! How cool!
Damn that's the second time I've done that I meant host!
Also enjoyed Dougal's site (found thru BlogSnob), especially the cartag story :-))
Monday, March 25, 2002
YAY! So I have gone for it and signed up with a posted by Listener at 11:54 PM
Hmmmm just looking at my Nedstat thingy I realised something....i use ,my site, and others to hop between other sites....hence I visit a few sites regularly but for only a brief time! Is this an acceptable thing to do? Does this not inflate other's stats, does this matter? Should I be using IE Favourites? Just wondering that's all :-)
It is easier to seek forgiveness than permission!! Just be roundly criticised for sending an email to the customer however at least its making people do something about the problem so the ends justified the means ;-)))
Sunday, March 24, 2002
I'm off to bed.....Another-Poet....ta for Flooble, have been trying to search other sites that use poetry a lot, there's probably web-rings out there, or maybe I'll set one up (!)....drop us a comment/email so I can link you! nn :-)
This sounds like a lovely place to go, they have a circle of tress, different types for different birthdays, bit like the zodiac I think, anyhow this explains it better (but in German!).
YAY!! ;-)))))))))))
I have lots of good things!
I have been for a walk on Epsom Down and watched people flying kites...its a gorgeous day out there!
I have got the CD ROM-CD R/W sorted out (many thanks to Sue-b plus guru! for help :-)
And I am wired for sound (oooh unfortunate Cliff reference there!) with a new sound card and speakers!
And I've been accepted into the music=oxygen web-ring, cheers guys!
Not bad considering I didn't get to bed till 5am because I was chatting to Briar!!
I am soothing and I bring people together. What more could you ever wish for?
Which invention are you? by Allieboballie
I like this its fun. Cheers SnarkyWench!!!!!
1) You might as well face it, you're addicted to... ooh to many things to count!
2) All I really need to do is find myself a brand new... sorry it has to be ….Start doesn’t it!
3) Who's the wind beneath your wings? Hmmm tricky several really good friends at present, Angie for defs, Sarah, just as def, Vi, coz she’s so cool with me and makes me larf, me girls….and too many others to count especially all those new found ones out there logging onto this! Sorry kno this shld be a SomeOne answer but its not for me ;-)
4) Who gives love a bad name? Er Courtney? Sorry all ya Courtney’s out there ;-).
5) Are you too shy? hmmm tricky one this one, I am but continuously fight it and put myself out there…so don’t seem it!
6) Do you work hard for the money? Tooooo hard! ‘Cept last week but they owe me!
7) There's something strange in your neighborhood. Who you gonna call? I’d probably investigate it myself….just like you shouldn’t do in all the best horror flicks!.
8) (thanks Sue!) Why do I find it hard to write the next line? Cos the truth is a bit too sad to contemplate!
Not sure about this but hey its kinda fun The What Kinda Shit Are You QuizI am A Floater: Floaters, the free birds of the shit family. Floaters drift through life without a care in the world, taking everything with a grain of salt, and smiling the whole way though. But friend of floaters are far and few in between. Because of there lofty views and social behavior, floaters tend to seem like they just don't give a damn about anything, the reason being, because they usually don't.
The first Sunday Samaritan is up y'all.....do it now!
Saturday, March 23, 2002
Colorgenics test results.....Oh my God!!!
You are a very sensitive person and you try hard (perhaps a little too hard) to make favourable impressions and to be recognised by your peers. But you have that inherent need to feel appreciated and admired and you are easily hurt if all of your endeavours go by unappreciated or not acknowledged. Stop trying so hard.
You are a true extrovert, frivolous and outgoing. You need to feel in control of any situation. If matters are not proceeding according to plan you tend to get extremely irritable and perhaps become difficult to live with.
Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.
Strange Day
I sat on the train today
And a lady across from me
Kind of smiled as if to say
I know where you are going
I sat down next to her
Looked into her eyes
“Where does this train go?”
I asked, and she replied
“Let it just drift on by
Take a look outside
Out of the window
The view is just getting interesting”
I said “what will I see?”
And she looked…confused
“Its always different” she said
Not for me I thought to myself
“Aaaah but there is a catch”
She whispered, as her eyes closed
She was smiling again now
I looked out of the window
It was always raining
“What catch?” I asked
“First you have to believe”
Still whispering, inside my head now
And the clouds broke and I caught
A brief ray of sunlight
Fleetingly
But when I turned back to her
More questions on my lips
Like “teach me…please”
“Show me?”
“How?”
She was gone
Ok so that was successful in that I now know how to get my computer apart and it still reboots. The CD R/W works ok, I have some confusion about connecting both CD ROM and CD R/W together on same IDE bus....basically the PC doesn't see either of them if I do this (and I've played with the jumpers on back of drives)...sought help from Sue-b's guru (many thnx) so here's hoping.....am going to buy a new soundcard tomorrow as the one that I think my PC has does not seem to have adriver installed and I can't find one for it, D'oh!
Half way there! Nervously took PC apart and put it back together with CD R?W! :-))
Hrumph, I don't know anything about computers, I have more questions than I can find answers on the CD R/W install and cannot seem to determine if I have a sound card or not! Well I know I don't have a working sound card but it sure looks like a sound card on the back of the PC. Ho hum, no gain without pain! :-)
I am so enjoying a new cd, Mathew Ryan, East Autumn Grin it reminds me a lot of Tom Petty.
Friday, March 22, 2002
Sometimes these days I feel..........I can't describe it.....like when you move away to a strange place, and you don't always like it at first and you miss....people, someone......stuff...the entirely-where-you-wanted-to-be....you don't fit in, you're not fully comfortable but you try.....you slowly get used to it, slowly learn to adapt to new surroundings...yeah, it still comes back to you with a huge 'kickinyourstomach' kinda feeling every so often, but you....you....get used to it, aclimatise, de-sensitize....you accept the new, continue to travel the journey.....that's kinda how I'm feeling.....like the train ride is slowly holding more......interest, than the place I embarked at....that the sights out the window are drawing me in.....yet I'm still not really travelling totally of my own volition....I don't know what it means for me to loose myself fully in the journey.....
Irrespective of the fact I know Ariel, I think Sunday Samaritan is just the best idea :-)
Its Friday Five time
1. what is your favorite time of year? Spring.
2. what is it about your favorite season that, well, makes it your favorite season? Newnbess, freshness, feelings that change is in the air and the texture in the daylight.
3. what is your least favorite time of year? Hot sticky summer days, tho' they brings storms and storms are cool so eventhese are not too bad!
4. do you do anything to celebrate or recognize the changing of seasons? No actually, hmmm, there's Something New there!
5. what's your favorite thing to do outside? Well apart from the obvious (Heh Heh!) I like lots of things but what I do like about being outside is just feeling the air, the weather, the elements, feeling alive.
These Things You Do
And what you do amazes me
Like a child climbing in a tree
Who jumps from high so selfishly
Because a friend has hurt his knee
For happiness you won’t think twice
Inner thoughts do not suffice
Reaching out in sacrifice
You can still give at any price
Touch the hearts of those around
Share the beauty you have found
Silently you make a sound
Sadness shed, we are unbound
Thursday, March 21, 2002
Hmmm, stuffed up that last link, now I can't edit it either, was meant to be The Mayfly Project!!
If you could describe last year in just twenty words what 20 words would explain the mix of feelings, thoughts, actions and instances that happen to you over a year. This is such a clever idea.....posted by Listener at 9:47 PM
Thought this was good, cheers Paisley :-)
48 years 8 months younger than Zsa Zsa Gabor, age 83
37 years 4 months younger than Clint Eastwood, age 71
34 years 7 months younger than Kim Novak, age 69
31 years 8 months younger than Burt Reynolds, age 66
27 years 8 months younger than Nick Nolte, age 62
26 years 5 months younger than Ann-Margret, age 60
20 years 6 months younger than Billy Crystal, age 55
17 years 10 months younger than Whoopi Goldberg, age 52
15 years 2 months younger than Robin Williams, age 49
11 years 3 months younger than Tom Hanks, age 45
8 years 10 months younger than Jamie Lee Curtis, age 43
6 years 6 months younger than Eddie Murphy, age 40
2 years 10 months older than Jennifer Lopez, age 31
11 years 5 months older than Jennifer Love Hewitt, age 23
20 years 6 months older than Haley Joel Osment, age 13
and when these movies were released in the U.S. your age was:
Midnight Cowboy: 1
The Godfather: 4
American Graffiti: 5
Jaws: 7
Star Wars: 9
Animal House: 10
Star Trek: The Motion Picture: 12
ET: 14
The Terminator: 17
Top Gun: 18
Planes, Trains & Automobiles: 20
Steel Magnolias: 22
Home Alone: 23
Wayne's World: 24
Jurassic Park: 25
Forrest Gump: 26
Fargo: 28
Saving Private Ryan: 30
Toy Story 2:
What a lovely day! Equally dark and light, perfect balance. I left work at 5 today as it was so lovely, just about to surf some sites, see what's up and then right some more words.
Thnx to people using the Flooble thing I like that :-)
Oh got a new pc which I am using today properly after setting it up yesterday- its an ex-work one so is pretty good and pretty cheap and has an LCD display which is brill. Going shopping at weekend for extras! :-)
Oh and did this earlier as well, haven't done a quiz for a few days!
I'm a
Water Spirit
Lunch is for wimps! Not those people trying to get a mortgage between meetings at work I'm hungry!!! ;-)
Wednesday, March 20, 2002
Oh and I just love this idea, I really do, the coolest thing (until Sunday?) I reckon ;-) Honestly Blogging Net Ring.
So not quite the witching hour yet, but musing on the power of good things in your life, good people, good vibes, am amazed at the web-community out-there and the ability to relate and understand and enjoy! Sorry if this sounds trite, its not, its truelly honest, as a n00bie (Ariel! ;-)) I feel already in awe of this connectivity!
Will be less introspective tomorrow for other readers who enjoy that too!!
Not got much to post, am playing with my new PC, trying to work out how it works and getting it to a state the last one was in. Trying to find out how to transfer my Outlook Express mailbox at the mo'!! :-)
I just so love this song from my new Robbie Robertson CD, a collaboration with U2 - so good, more music to live by!
Sweet Fire of Love
Didn't we break the silence
Didn't we fear the storm
Didn't we move the earth
Didn't we shoot for the sky
Didn't we catch the fire
Didn't we call upon the spirits
Didn't we fall together
Didn't we die for love
Days on the run
Nights in hiding
Hoping that you were
The healing inside me
Breathe in the sweet fire of love
I'm not afraid anymore
Sweet, sweet fire
I'm not alone
Breathe in the sweet fire of love
I'm not the same anymore
The sweet fire of love
Didn't we cross new waters
Didn't we mix new blood
Didn't we build brand new bridges
Didn't we hold back the flood
Broken idols by the side of the road
Luck didn't fall on the side of the law
Here she comes a-shining like a light
Here she comes salvation in the night
Days on the run
Nights in hiding
Hoping that you were
The healing inside me
Breathe in the sweet fire of love
I'm not afraid anymore
Sweet, sweet fire
I'm not alone
Breathe in the sweet fire of love
I'm not the same anymore
The sweet fire of love
Didn't we shine like silver
Didn't we bear the cross
Didn't we bring down the hammer
Didn't we beat on the drum
Days on the run
Here she comes a-shining like a light
Nights in hiding
Here she comes salvation in the night
Hoping that you were
I'm giving up the ghost
The healing inside me
I'm giving up the ghost
Breathe in the sweet fire of love
I'm not afraid anymore
Sweet, sweet fire
I'm not alone
Breathe in the sweet fire of love
I'm not the same anymore
The sweet fire of love
Ahhhh the witching hours again, feelin' chilled, listened to spam radio,
Coop mate, where do you get this stuff from? Chatted to no for ages, and now thinking I'm fine, even though sometimes every part of my body and soul wants to be sad. Oh and Watercoloured Words has got the vibe! Ariel, babe, I kno its the right way to go, but it's soooo hard sometimes to be fine, keep lighting the way will you? And did you realise you're being Paid Forward already? Want to say this again, for different reasons this time:
The I'm Fine Girl
And the I'm fine girl is smiling today
All your troubles should melt away
Things to do and things to say
Can wait a while its time to play
And the I'm fine girl has a way to be
Be simple, have fun, live honestly
Feel alive and always see
The brighter things which are always free
So the troubled boy has looked outside
And saw the sun's not trying to hide
So has breathed real deep and stemmed the tide
And I'm fine too he's thinking inside
Tuesday, March 19, 2002
Listening to Robbie Robertson so cool, wanted it for ages now i have it! :-)
This is spooky and enlightening! Colorgenics Test
YAY! Thought I had to battle mortgage forms again tonight but seems I don't have to now so can go to pub quiz (we're on a winning streak!).
Monday, March 18, 2002
Hi No, cool chat cheers! Will link you later!
I liked this (and working out the songs too): eight from the eighties, seems to be a regualr thing! Cheers for link Sue-b!
1) can you drive 55? Oh yes, like driving for me, hate driving to work (M25), 6 track CD is one consolation tho.
2) do you blister in the sun? Nope, kinda brown up ok, prefer sitting in shade in sun tho', if you kno what I mean?.
3) are you pretty in pink? Could be, maybe, once had a pink tie which was kinda pretty!
4) who's your obsession? Ahhh, well, all reader's would kno there is one, but we'll move on shall we.....
5) were you born in a small town? -ish, near to Portsmouth tho, which isn't that small.
6) do you love rock-n-roll? 3-chords and the truth, and all that comes with it.
7) dear god, i hope you get this letter and, i pray... you'll make my day.....?
8) you just got paid. it's friday night. what are you going to do? spend it.
I don't believe in not saying things for fear of tempting fate so I am going to write that I have brought a house! Yay!! Actually its only at the offer-accepted stage so there's plenty of time before I can say for definate. This is a really big step for me, a few necessary, but difficult decisions in my life means this is a harder step than it really should be but I am excited about having 'a place of my own'.
hmm was just about to add some introspective stuff but fuck it, I'll jsut enjoy the moment.
Oddly enough tho' I had spent the day being deliberately fine, remaining positive and enjoying all the good things in it!
And hey, it really does work :-))
Sunday, March 17, 2002
Have had a very pleasant evening, this does not relfect all of it, but nevertheless, encapsulates some of it!
Flying
And I flew far away
Tho’ I never really moved
To a place that they say
You won’t feel so removed
From direction and aim
Things needed in your life
If you are to lay claim
To control of the knife
That hangs on your heart
That cuts you so deep
That keeps you apart
That wakes you when asleep
So I flew to a place
Where fields were so green
And sights came apace
That I had never seen
But I could not lie down
It just was not real
Tried to walk around
But my heart could not feel
Why must it be this
When will I feel again
The solace from a kiss?
And let go all this pain?
For the un-cynical out there, thank you!
Silver - Echo & the Bunneymen
....
The sky is blue
My hands untied
A world that's true
Thru all clean eyes
Just look at you
With burning lips
You're living proof
At my fingertips
.....
After much searching 'I' have found this. It was really difficult for some reason, in fact big ta to Cupid-Girl for actually finding them, despite not believing!!
I can’t remember what I was going to say about them now, other than they are inspirational!
Brand New Start – Paul Weller
I'm gonna clear out my head
I'm gonna get myself straight
I know it's never too late
To make a brand new start
I'm gonna kick down the door
I'm gonna get myself in
I'm gonna fix up the yard
And not fall back again
I'm gonna clear up my earth
And build a heaven on the ground
Not something distant, unfound
But something real to me
But something real to me
All that I can, I can be
All that I am I can See
All that is mine is in my hands
So to myself I call
There's somewhere else I should be
There's someone else I can see
There's something more I can find
It's only up to me
I'm gonna clear up my earth
And build a heaven on the ground
Not something distant, unfound
But something real to me
But something real to me
I'm gonna clear out my head
I'm gonna get myself straight
I feel it's never too late
To make a brand new start
To make a brand new start
Hmmm my heads buzzing and don't know where to start! Had a lovely day with the girls, Bryony makes me coffee in bed now, more to get me up than anythink methinks (not that i lay in too long when I have them - the moments are too few anyway to waste asleep), then we played and did homework, Katherine was sat with 8 plates in a square and a bowl of 20 pasta pieces trying to make the sides add up to 8, 9, 7 and then 6. I tried a touch of series theory on her - think she got it in the end!
Bryony had to do a fact sheet on somewhere and now I have internet access resources where easier, we (she) chose Isle of Man as i spent time there last year we used Isle of Man Info and ManxNet.
The Isle of Man is….indefinable really, I started off being fairly ambivalent to it really but as I got to know it, and the people better, I started to see a place with a real sense of identity, rich in history and culture and with beautiful breathtaking scenery.
I have travelled a fair bit with work and I feel lucky to have spent so long in two places (Isle of Man and Bangladesh) that I got to know something of the real country and its people and culture. Big thank you to those people who opened my eyes.
Thanks too to the ‘Anonymous Commenter’ (you’ll know who you are, your comments mean a lot to me, please continue.
Am now chilling with a glass of wine and am writing some stuff and planning some work on my site this weekend. I have an ftp download, some webspace, a host contact and a copy of .net to start with!!
Also want to find out ways of finding other Blogs and sites other than through links on other people’s pages (or is this the way others do it?).
Saturday, March 16, 2002
What a lovely day, Steve and Wendy are just so cool and they're simply the best cooks I know so have left there totally stuffed! The girls and their boys played really happily all afternoon, I showed them how to make origami boats and then we converted them into catamarans and let them loose on the nearby pond in the pouring rain, half an hour later they eventually drifted to the other side!!
Just chillin' to some music and wine now! hmmmm
Woken up feeling refreshed, looking forward to a day with the girls visiting friends!
Friday, March 15, 2002
Hey! Yeah this is me alright!
Which tarot card
Ah the Friday Five is up
1. What's your favorite animal? Hmmm, no sorry cannot think of any in particular, dolphins are cool, do they count?.
2. What pets have you had in your lifetime? At least three budgies from time to time, a rabbit, a collection of tropical fish.
3. Is there any specific pet that you've wanted but never had? I'd sort of like a cat one day, maybe.
4. Are you allergic to any animals? No.
5. Do you have any 'pet' pet peeves (your pets or others')? Not really, I once brought a house where the previous owner had 5 cats and two dogs, the surveyor reported on a damp patch in the lounge thought to be associated with the cat 'cage' that was situated there and when we viewed the place she made us tea while one of the cat's strolled across the worktop and sniffed inside our cups - that sort of thing is.....well you know!
I love the small hours between midnight and whatever o’clock. They carry such a wide range of moods and feelings, they can either be thoughts of a warm bed and sleep, they could be when the night is just kicking off, they can be filled with sorrow or joy, company or solitude, idle thought or set the ‘world to rights’ thought. I’ve had some of the highs and lows in these times, some of the best spent out in company or lying next to a still warm indentation remembering the moments just a few minute before, or lying close by someone and exchanging half asleep murmuring. And that time has dragged me down as well, refused to let sleep or solace come to me, keeping me in a permanent tormented state. All of which can be felt at other times of course but there’s something about the hours between yesterday and tomorrow that seem to hold the capacity for the extreme. Its when you can be at your best or your worst.
This'll teach me to stay up till the wee small hours!
Last Night
Last night it came
Starting over again
I just let it happen
All the pleasure and pain
Last night I feared
With this I wont to cope
I just let it happen
I gave up on all hope
Last night I cried
For what had been lost
I just let it happen
No thought for the cost
Last night I thought
How do I move on
I just let it happen
For something has gone
Last night I felt
How do I deal with this
I just let it happen
And its you who I miss
Last night I fell
To my knees in despair
I just let it happen
But I just did not care
And last night was just
A passing of time
I just let it happen
As this sadness is mine
Such a strange day, sort of went high to low to high to low to high. I hate these mood swings, I never used to be like this, I was more get it off my chest and be done with it! Anyhow mostly tired as coudln't sleep last night, wrote a poem tho' - will paste it later. So work was a bit frustrating and I got a bit down about that thing and then as I was driving to pick the girls up I stopped for coffee and the sun broke out and I thought Hey I am fine! As long as you believe in it it does work, the trick is believing I guess, click your heels and think of Kansas, Dorothy. And then I got the girls and found out that my ex-wife's best friend (whom I had known quite well but not seen for ages) had died of cancer which was awful. I feel so sorry for her family and naturally went through the 'think you've got problems' thing. Was then handed a stack of photos that she didn't want any more with a 'I don't want any memories of you' still which kinda brought me back to reality. Still used to that by know. Anyhow this is a ramble, suffice to say that I am trying to follow the I'm Fine Girl's advice, I don't always manage it (but then I know what I have lost) but am getting better.
I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.I am fine.
Hmmm, its supposed to work!
OK so after much angst this week I have settled on a nickname, Listener
I’llmaybe explain some more some time, or maybe leave it to people to make their own mind up about what it all means! :-)
Thursday, March 14, 2002
Just got a BeatGreet [cheers Angie :-)] musical cards, check it out: BeatGreets
And rubik’s Cube On-Line took me back a few years, but I can only do the first layer now!!!!
Ok so just got in, had to stay late at work because of stupid meeting with stupid people who liked the sound of their own stupid voices!
Right that's out my system. Just went to do the Daily Telegraph Cryptic crossword for the first time in ages (they have a good Java enabled on-line crossword) but you now have to pay to join! D'oh! Maybe I will subscribe anyway, I do love the cryptic crossword (only reason I by the paper, oh, well, the sport is good too) but haven't done it for a while, I went off it ...more memories.
Am listening to a brilliant compilation cd made for me which has some great songs on it. So I am going to surf a while now............
I didn't really understand I Have A Line when I wrote it, the words kind of fell out of me, and that's good they shouldn't always be so transparent and personal, they should let reader's make their own minds up, but I think its trying to talk about an inner dilemma I have, trying to help people but not being very good at it, trying to match people's perceptions with my own inner perceptions of myself, being guilty of giving too much sometimes when not sure I am qualified to, not always getting it right, stuff like that.
Still in a good mood tho'! :-).
Woke up a bit anxious but I hope I have now cleared up a small misunderstanding, happy I worked it all out on my own! In fact pretty damned happy full stop!
Wednesday, March 13, 2002
In case I don't get invited my Something New was being a friend today. Hold that thought, savour it, enjoy the taste and remember it well!
I have a Line
Let me show you the places I’ve been
The good and the bad, the soul and the sin
Absolution? You looking?
Resolving? Come on in!
I have a good line for giving in
Let me show you just where I am at
The headache and heartache, all this and all that
Understanding? You looking?
Educating? Come on in!
I have a good line for stepping back
Let me show just you where I can go
All of the places that are out there I know
Happiness? You looking?
Travelling? Come on in!
I have a good line for going slow
Let me show you inside of my soul
The places where my inner self goes
Satisfaction? You looking?
Pacifying? Come on in!
I have a good line for lying low
Hmmm just tried the ICQ logo hyper link thingy but didn't like it in the end, took about 6 edits to get it to the point where it was right, but still didn't like it!!
Couldn't get onto my blogger site last night or today which was irritating but glad to see my post I posted did in fact post!!!
Spent last night writing instead but didn't come out with anything I want to post just yet, needs reworking.
Ok so just got in from pub - to see mates who I used to work with ostensibly to get web-site tips but ended up talking crap - as it should be then! Bit miffed a work 'aquaintance' who used to work for me and for whom (I felt anyway) i did a lot for hasn't invited me to his 30th where they are all off too now hence I am here.
......but then as he hasn't asked I'm not that miffed, prat!!
Several things recently from many different sources made me think, what does this page look like to other's who happen upon it (and I'm thinking content not colour scheme!). I am conscious it is little more than a diary and some web-links. I have plans to establish my own site and lots of ideas for different areas on it that say more about me and who I am and what I'm about as well as interests and passions. For now its a diary, and one of a strange time in my life. But you know what? It's time for action not rhetoric, for walking forwards not just looking there. So I have started back at the gym (I did this at Xmas but then hurt my back! D'oh!), making plans for weekends rather than letting them happen upon me, addressing things I've neglected, focussing at work (except at this precise moment - lunch!) and other stuff.
Tuesday, March 12, 2002
Been wrestling with this since last week, it kind of captures things I've been mulling over the last few days.
Out of The Storm
We slid from lovers into friends
I can’t remember how
And it could fill me with despair
If its all I thought of now
But before you I was someone
And with you I was more
If now I can’t be better still
What was what happened for?
From the past I drag my mind
And now ahead I look
My storey was made richer as
A page turns in my book
You taught me so much in our time
And for these things I care
The memories whilst they’re fondly kept
The past is left back there
We move on now as something else
And so I face the sun
This friendship takes me forward now
I can be again someone
Had the worst drive in to work today (self inflicted cos I overslept and took a bad-choice detour for petrol rather than visiitng my lcoal garage - D'oh!) but I didn't care cos the music was loud and the sun was shining. Last night was spent surfing and chatting on IRC until I hit a site that seemed to randomly and furiously start generating new links to other sites and my pc went a bit wild.
Just noticed my last post is missing as a result, it was a link to a site generating a general description of who you were in a past light. It only asked two or three specific questions (inc yr DOB). Was chatting to someone about how it worked and am now thinking its probably based on star-signs/horoscope but with a more unusual description.
Anyhow will repost from home tonight.
Monday, March 11, 2002
The storm has passed.
Well that was a weird day, encapsulated by the drive home, which was stormy (!) and elongated by me taking a wrong turn and ending up back at work agian!! Well I was talking (hands-free) to a friend about stuff and must've not been concentrating.
The storm (literal and metaphorical) was bad, dark, ominous and threatening, but I rode it out (with help and guidance from aforementioned friend). And by the time I got home it was calm and so was I. A lot of stuff made sense. I nearly reached out in the wrong direction today, in the wrong way and I am very aware that I must stop doing that so am very glad I didn't.
I think that's all I want to say on the matter for now. Oh, except that people's capacity for love and understanding can be amazing at time's, friends are so important.
I was talking with a friend on Friday about how some people just drop out of their own life, they up sticks and disappear, drop contact with everyone they know and just walk away. Obviously with the exception the more macabre reasons or those caused by immense suffering, illness or cruelty, why do people do this and what does it feel like? Why do some people risk everything and dramatically change their lives, and whatever the outcome, how many actually regret not taking the chance?
There are certain things in life that you just do not know the answer to until they happen. But even more strongly than that that you simply cannot imagine what it would be like until they happen. These are the more profound things in life like a critical illness, the birth of a child, the death of a close friend or relative or moving far away from home, or…...
This is because there is usually no reference point from which to base a comparison, the concept being considered is to far removed from the current state of being to comprehend.
And such things obviously affect your decisions, the not knowing what one possibility would be like or how it would work out somehow makes it easier to decide against pursuing it, or harder to decide for it. But what if that decision leads to something wonderful, something you never look back on, then all the angst and pain and indecision would seem worthwhile wouldn’t it?
Ok you would never know that for sure, but when is the chance worth the risk, isn’t this in part what defines living, taking the risk to attain something unimaginably wonderful. And shouldn't you live each day like its your last? And if it is your last day how would you really choose to spend it? What decisions would you have made differently to make that last day the best it could possibly be.
I am in the eye of the storm now.
Maybe not, maybe this is My Perfect Storm, today seems overly opressive. Today the world seems full of so much reflection yet counter-balanced with thoughts of the future, and my own world mirrors it, generally, specifically, outwardly and inwardly. My thoughts are elsewhere, nowhere, somewhere.
Ok that particular storm has subsided somewhat and I feel a bit clearer headed, I have lots to say on this suject tho' but it will have to wait tonight as work presses!!
I am wondering if I am simply papering over cracks here? Am I denying my feelings, leaving possible avenues unexplored? Am I basing decisions on a pre-supposed outcome? Am I fabricating a lie on which to build the rest of my life? Woke up feeling confused but put it to the back of my mind, but these thoughts keep resurfacing.
Sunday, March 10, 2002
Moments
Some moments you want to last always
And never let them go
Hold them in a time and space
Where everything goes slow
Some moments can never come too soon
And in between’s not real
You wait for them until its time
And all the rest don’t feel
Some moments you just want to pass
And move on to the new
You put up with the pain of them
And hope that they are few
Some moments are just nothing much
Neither this or that
You drift along at their own speed
Not knowing what they’re at
But all the moments in your life
Count for something more
Than most people often realise
Or give them credit for
Live them then, every one
As if they were your last
When they are done you may move on
But those moments they are past
For a change, rather than flick thru my cd stack and settle on a current favourite, I picked blind and am quite chuffed to have selected ' Maxim's Class of '96 (yeah I know what you're thinking but its got a good selection on it. Its a kind of Britpop review and introduced me at the time to the delights of Suede, Sleeper, Babybird and Kula Saker (alas no more). Well I'd been travelling a lot the 9 months up to this cd being released (I mean the magazine it was stuck on being published of course) so had missed out on a fair bit of cd buying.
I quite like the lyrics of the first three of these groups, they capture emotions in quite a stark/violent/blunt way, even upbeat songs have a harder veneer.
Kind of not doing much really, went out house hunting earlier but didn't really get anywhere, other than realising I need to either win the lottery or rob a bank to be able to afford to buy around here (just south of M25 Surrey-ville). As neither is a likely scenario time to re-think. I have some options, move further south, but that's further from work, change jobs to a more reasonably priced location (tempting but with everything else going on, nah! don't think so), keep on renting (well apart from the 'rent money is dead money' syndrome this is a distinct possibility, I mean my flat is cool and probably bigger than anything I could afford to buy, but it just doesn't feel like, like, home I guess, me probably is more precise).
Still we'll see, I have started the search going, guess there’s time.
This apart it was good to get out, it was really windy out there and it cleared the head, I also drove back through some of the prettiest countryside and village around these parts listening to music very loud.
Just added a wishlist onto the page which I've seen some other sites do, not because I want anyone to buy me anything, but think its an insight nto one's interests and tastes! 'course, pressies are always nice to have ;-)
I liked this
on-line clock
a lot
Tick-Tock
Just been surfing around so added a few links on the left that I liked, in particular music=oxygen which I've applied for. Moral question? If they reject my application do I keep the links on the left? Answer: hey of course, still a good site and its their loss!! Oh and this is not sucky, just fact!
Some web designs out there are so cool, must get some webspace and host (correct term?) a proper site about my loves
I'm not sure if my poetry (or would be lyrics 'cept I can't play/write music!) is any good or not (and not sure I care either). I have found, though, over the past few weeks an ability to write down how I'm feeling and that the words just come to me quite easily. I have tried before, several times to write but never really been able to express things properly, maybe I didn't persevere, maybe I didn't just do it and be damned, maybe having this Blog has given me an outlet or maybe I just found some poetry in my life that has released the jumble of words in my head.
Whatever I am enjoying it, I find a word or phrase pops into my head and connects with some thought or emotion and I write it down and that’s the starting point. Often the rest follows quite quickly, tho’ I normally reflect on the ‘finished’ article for a while and make a few tweaks here and there. It rarely happens the other way round, I rarely think of a subject and then start to write, tho’ I do have many ideas in my head that I want to write about.
Poetry in Blog’s is relatively common (based on my travels so far), there’s a world of people out there finding an outlet and I find it immensely enjoyable happening on beautiful words and ideas. I’m not vain enough (or confident enough) to refer them back to my site but maybe people will start to happen upon it and feel something similar. Maybe there’s a book to be had, Blog Poetry (ideas for title’s welcome, if I could think of a good one I’d enter those competitions requiring a 10 word slogan as a tie-breaker!).
Anyhow not sure where this is going, its just an idle moment spent finishing my coffee and mulling over thoughts in my head (a potential definition of a Blog? Again alternate ideas welcome).
I want this feeling
Of connectivity
To last
Eternally
Why am I awake? I'm tired, spent most of the night tossing and turning and coughing, going to try dozing on the sofa!
Saturday, March 09, 2002
Learning
...how simple it can all become,
when you can learn to let go…
…the pain and ache, they can depart,
but how are we to know…
…that feeling too much, denies something,
but not feeling at all can slow…
…the journey to another place,
that’s not so bad to know...
...where possibilities are all around,
and something new can grow.
So I have now stopped playing with the template, still not happy with bits of it but am really pleased with how much I did manage to do, with help, cheers Ariel ;-)
Just surfin', chilling to music (Eels - Souljacker's just finished, Stereophonics' too much Educaation.... now), and writing.
Ok am going to be playing with template a lot so bear with me on layout and stuff (if anyone's out there!!).
Not sure what this says about me really!!!
I'm the purple shimmer Doc Marten...
I'm a little spunky, definitely fun,
and I like believing in fantasy
Which Doc Marten are you?
(by *coffeebean*)
Been surfing around and trying to POP3 my on-line mail account to Outlook Express, it sort of seems to work but now won't send out emails (!!!). Anyhow hugely enjoyed holly-cam.com. Must get site sorted so can have a Blogs I read section or something.
Wow, just got my 512k broadband going it's feckin fast as a friend so eloquently put it (even if shedoes have the full 2Meg)!!!!
It is a beautiful day, clear, crisp, sunny, full of promise. Woke up with this in my head:
I want some time now out in the sun
Laughing and happy and having some fun
Living each day for all it can be
And taking the pleasure from all I can see
I want some time now lying at night
Quiet and peaceful, all my thoughts light
Enjoying the dark, the stars and the moon
Not needing the morning to come quite so soon
This is what I logged on for!
Moving on?
This is not wholly formed in my mind yet but it is becoming more substantial, is indeed starting to become the dominant thought. “the me you are thinking about at the moment, isn't real” she said to me. That’s been floating around in my head for a while recently. Is it true? When I look back at the time we had I realise that we were very close very quickly and that we had the best of times, we talked for hours, shared passions in music, books, words….. communication in every form, but we didn’t live a reality as such.
The relationship stayed (wonderfully) the same from beginning to end, we were caught in a time, her time and my time coincided and we shared an experience where there was always the future out there in the future and where the present was suspended for a while.
The time was special but the future was not real, not possible. And whilst the future maybe became the present a little sooner and more unexpectedly than I was prepared for the reality of it was probably always inevitable. Maybe somewhere in some parallel universe a different reality happened, would that it were this one but no, its not in this one.
But, and there is always a but, there is still a reality that is wonderful, there is still the opportunity to share many things that we both care for and hold dear. The friendship part of the relationship still exists and is still a reality.
I can go forward with that.
That’s all.
It's Friday Five - I don't know how to get the questions so have to wait for a friend to post her responses at the mo, so this is Saturday morning five!!!
1. What makes you homesick? I used to get homesick as a kid, was a bit of a loner so jsut missed comfortable surroundings I guess, don't get homesick anymore as 'home' has always been where I am rather than any fixed base.
2. Where is "home" for you? Is it where you are living now, or somewhere else (ie: Mom & Dad's house, particular state/city)? Currently Leatherhead, tho' have no strong affiliation to it, I am loking to buy a property and want that to be home but not too sure at present what will define it.
3. What makes it home for you? People? Things? I have possessions I cherish, reminders of certain times, but guess home is a place where I can be myself.
4. Where is the furthest you've been from home, miles-wise? Australia, though I was in Bangladesh for a while and that felt like home (another storey for another time).
5. What are your plans for this weekend? Just had meal with a firend (you said I'd log on didn't you!), tomorrow getting NTL BB connected, playing with site and recovering from cold, Sunday, maybe the same, maybe a bike ride, not too sure.
Friday, March 08, 2002
Slipping From Consciousness
It doesn’t hurt less, just less often
Like a reformed addict’s last hit
It’s the hangover from a great night out
But I can’t recall all of it
Like a car crash you can’t quite remember
Or awaking in a new, strange place
You are sure you know someone completely
But can’t quite picture the face
It’s a butterfly flapping across the world
Bringing the turmoil into my life
I never meant to cut quite so deeply
Or even to pick up the knife
And I pressed the self-destruct button
And started an internal war
And as I take a step back and lick at my wounds
I wonder what was it all for
Hey its back - YAY!!!! :-)
I have been drifting a fair bit today owing to a huge hangover from last night's work do. Lots of beer, too little food and Karaoke (!), was totally humiliated by work mate putting me up to sing Beetlebum which I had mistaken for Song 2 so was rather surprised when a different tune came up than was expecting. All of which was irrelevant as I can't sing - it was v bad but hey, the night was fun, got to dance which I'm am better at than singing!!
Got lots of stuff to say, lots of thoughts but all unfocussed. Have got the code for various links for my 'new-look' web-page sorted out so am looking forward to having a play this weekend. If I had an imood indicator (which I will soon) it would say bemused, excited and happy(ish) tho not sure if you can have multiple conflicting categories!!!!
Anyhow, have a poem to post and The Friday Five to try and track down.
Thursday, March 07, 2002
So many faces in and out of my life
Some will last, some will just be now and then
Life is a series of hellos and goodbyes
I'm afraid its time for goodbye again
B Joel (Say Goodbye To Hollywood)
I'm off to the pub!
I Remember
I remember a room
Filled with electricity
And a touch and kiss
And of feeling so free
I remember a call
So long but too short
And not wanting to leave
The moment we’d caught
I remember a park
Green grass and blue skies
And the warmth of the sun
That shone in you eyes
I remember a lane
And a field and a gate
And lying down there
And letting things wait
I remember a time
When you lit up my space
And I woke every morning
And saw first your face
These things and more
Will stay in my heart
And be always remembered
Now we are apart
I now have loads of ideas and some templates for new site layout. Thank's Ariel for that, if I can get it looking half as good as yours it'll be very good ineed.
Made it into work at last, think a few people are starting to visit my site so good morning and trust your all fine!
And isn't it ironic, don't you think?
Just a little too ironic, yeah I really do think.
Yuk! Cold is in full swing! I mus start looking after myelf better. Woken too late to make a meeting but don't think I could sit thru it anyway!
Feel good tho', its sort of an all-in-one day today, half clear blue skies and sun, half cloudy, a bit of a breeze is pushing the clouds along. It was grey yesterday but it looks bright and clean out there today and that's kinda making my mood the same.
Violet (Friend 2) is checkin' out my site today (!) - hope you 'like' it hun, don't forget to sign the guest book!!!! :-)
Better get up s'pose.
Just wnated to say something about getting better. Not sure what. Not sure if I am or not, not sure if my actions/words reveal that, I feel happier, feel I'm getting where I want to be, feel 'I'm fine' lots of the time. Hope people will persevere and see that this is moving in the right direction!!
Am off to bed!!
Ok, couldn't ge onto blogger for 30mins or so, thnx to Heather for first non-known comments (just worked out how to make these a proper link!!). Night all.
Wednesday, March 06, 2002
Don't you just hate that. I've tried to open a bottle of wine and the cork has shredded and I can't get it out now and its plastic so I can't push it back in the bottle.!!
D'oh!!
I just noticed I'd lost an entry but also had a double entry, must have been more tired when I did it than I thought. Meant to say something about being a bit disappointed I turned out as Merry (tho he is kind of fun so that's ok), would've preferred to be Arragorn but reckon you had to have a beard to get that character.
Merry Brandybuck
If I were a character in The Lord of the Rings, I would be Merry, Hobbit, heir of the Brandybucks and a friend of Frodo's.
In the movie, I am played by Dominic Monaghan.
Wh
