Oh my! Have I got it wrong....but....isn't music just to die for! I mean isn't it just the best at hitting where it matters...making you shiver, smile, laugh, cry, chill.....so many emotions...just I love it all of it I love just feeling it, dancing to it, singing to it....just the what's it all about of it....sometimes I wonder of I feel/hear/read more into it than was ever intended....and then sometimes I think oh my! that's so......so.....oh yeah! Just love it...I do :))
Shuffle Play's giving me:
Its not like you didn't know thaat, I said I love you and I meant that.......Nickleback This is How You Remind And oh I'll miss you every day of your life ....and maybe when you're dead I'll get some rest from holding onto you....Sleeper What do I do Now There goes the fear.......BIG guitar riff .....The Doves There Goes the Far You say I'm a dreamer, we're two of a kind, we're both of us searching for some perfect world that we'd never find.....Thompson Twins Hold Me Noe .......................................and so many more
posted by Listener at 1:05 AM
Off to my ma and pa tomorrow morning then spiderman at the flicks with D. tomorrow afternoon...for now bed, nn :)
posted by Listener at 12:54 AM
Saturday, June 29, 2002
Oh and well done Turkey and well played S. Korea.....and what a wonderful display of sportsmanship at the end - everyone linked hands and walked round the pitch thanking the fans :))
posted by Listener at 9:13 PM
So music day - boy do I need music at the mo - glass of wine Q on the TV, shuffle play on my pc for when one comes on I don't like or the ads kick in - brought some new stuff today: Massive Attack's Blue Line's - oh yeah! and also same band this time Mezzanine, track 3 TearDrop....gonna add it to my Music to Live By site tonight!! And also The Velvet Undergorund's Andy Warhol and a Kink's best of, You Really Got Me some classics for my collection!
Currently love The Calling's Wherever You Will Go - so much thought you might like to Hear It!
posted by Listener at 8:37 PM
From Karen and Colin a new thingy :) The idea behind these questions is to answer in threes, to give it a bit of a twist. For example: Q: What's for breakfast? A: Coffee, toast, cereal.
The "bonus question" doesn't have to be answered in threes, answer it how you'd like.
1. What reminds you of Summer? Sun, light mornings, bare skin. 2. What quenches your thirst in the Summer? Water, lager, and cooooold coca cola. 3. What do you like to do in the Summer? Sit outside, go on holiday, leave work early. 4. What do you dislike about summer? Sweating (!), traffic jams, rain (lol). 5. What are your favorite Summer foods? Salad, bbq'd anything and watermelon.
Bonus: What was your best summer and why? Can't remember a singular summer, I remember some lovely family summer holidays when I was a kid, summers at uni were spent working in Bath which was ace.
And besides there is always this too look forward to ;o)
posted by Listener at 5:00 PM
Memo to self: don't blog about 'everyday' problems when tired they seem worse than they are and they're not exactly earth shattering.
Second (unrelated) memo to self: don't forget there's a catch....first you have to believe!!
posted by Listener at 4:53 PM
Just had a shower to wash the travel grime off (nice!) and still feel a bit wired and not too ready for sleep.
Been doing a lot of thinking over the past few days, I feel some changes coming on in me, this is a really stupid thing (for me anyway) but I'm starting to feel old. Not in outlook or behaviour, I still feel pretty much 18 a lot of the time on that score, and not from a 'oh no another birthday looms' perspective, I have never been bothered about the years passing or the number of them that make up my 'age', but I feel.....erm....weary and unfulfilled? No, again, that's the wrong word, I have had a pretty good life really and I am not ungrateful and I certainly don't regret anything. I have had wonderful experiences, not least my two girls. I think its more that I feel I've possibly lived for the day a little too much or at least that maybe I should start thinking ahead a little more.
This is not making sense, even to me, K a different angle, I'm not too good with money and that's starting to hit home these days, my flat is taking ages to sort out and I feel a little in limbo where I am at the moment, and my job just isn't fulfilling, I feel I am not really making the most of myself, not using the few skills I will actually acknowledge I have, I feel a bit stuck. I'm very woirried about Angie and we've not been in contact recently and that worries me some more. But these are symptoms not the problem. I don't know why I get like this, deep down I am not particularly secure about myself, I don't recognise the person other people see (I've said this before I'm sure) and I know the real me and sometimes I feel a bit of a fraud, except I'm not a fraud, I'm not clever enough to deceive anyone or play games (not that that is a desireable thing anyway)..........i just can't put my finger on it and I know in times like this I have sometimes reached out in the wrong direction, made some big changes and that's sufficed for a while...but it always comes back to this feeling of......and there you go again...feeling of what? I sometimes think if i knew what it was then everything would make sense and I'd know what to do, how to be, where to go.....lol!
I remember getting very very sad when I was about 17 or so for a few weeks I was lethargic and unmotivated and mostly just felt sad......and I've kinda feel like that every-so-often ever since, not often and not even noticeably-externally, but internally...whilst I feel a lot happier with me and who I am and stuff in recent years....I still feel sometimes I really don't know who I am.
Oh fuck it I'm going to bed!
posted by Listener at 12:43 AM
So I'm back, I got in maybe 10 minutes ago and I'm whacked...but I also need to unwind so thought I'd update the last couple of days. Got an early flight to Munich Tuesday but with time difference and the fact the airport is quite a way out of the city and we checked into hotel first we didn't get to offices until 2ish and then had a preparation type meeting which went on till 8 ish. We went into one of the squares and ate outside as the evening was lovely. Lots of Germans celebrating their semi-final win over South Korea - but I kept my views on that to myself :))
Next day we got to offices with customer in tow for meetings which started with a 'grievance' airing and got worse then a bit better as things were slowly clarified and explained. Finished up about 7.30pm and went to a beergraden which was rammed but had a good atmosphere and was fun. Todays' meetings were more of the same and these finished around 6ish and we were straight to the airport in plenty of time for out 9pm flight.
Did a bit of shopping sent the girls some cards and got them some chocolate (ever since a trip to Switzerland a few years ago where I brought them some chocolate they always associate business trips with bringing sweets home!!!!) and I treated myself to a bottle of JD which was loads cheaper than UK.
Funny security clearance story - they were quite strict there and one woman who had 4 bags (handbag, carrier bag, small suitcase and computer case) was undergoing a routine bag search after the X-ray machine and she started getting a bit cross so the guards just went through everything in detail - lol! And what was funnier was that in her suitcase under some neatly folded clothes was just loads of electronic stuff (batteries, Walkman, plugs, chargers) all entirely innocent but nevertheless all the kinds of stuff that look suss on the X-Ray. She really didn't help herself by saying 'that is expensive equipment if you break it you will pay for it' - like they cared. Anyhow in the mild amusement of this I left my bag of chocolate and JD there and realized about 5 minutes later so went back for it....and she was still there being searched - ROFL :))
Anyhow flight was a little late and I had to pick a hire car up as my car is in garage being fixed so it took even longer to get out of airport - and I got a crappy Skoda Diesel - Bah! Sorry I'm not a huge car snob really but its just a little disappointing (sorry all you Skoda drivers out there!!).
On plus side I had some interesting news which I need to give some serious thought too over weekend....watch this space...I'm not being deliberately cryptic I just cannot say too much about it at the mo!
I'm out straight from work tomorrow but am in on Saturday so will catch up with other stuff then :))
LOL - just realised I need to change my poem pages etc......but for now I have to pack for Germany....I may post something else tonight but if not see you Thursday :))
posted by Listener at 10:15 PM
So as if you haven't noticed I changed my template! Little more than colour changes maybe (time always time!) tho I did 'design' the new logo myself and again learnt more than the changes show (tho more quesitons than answers methinks). I started off going in a minimalist direction but then thought hey I like my toys and my bright colours so decided to keep them :))
It was actually quite a big step to change this I've had it since I started.......
posted by Listener at 9:53 PM
Sunday, June 23, 2002
Turning Point
Did I mistake you for Someone I thought cared? And did you think this life Would forever be shared? Did you not think that I Gave you all that I could? You never held out for Someone you knew would
So I am sorry if I failed to deceive And I can’t change it now Be the friend that you need Because as it comes to rest All I am you deny I know I gave my best But your standards where high
You say you speak the truth So do I stand here and lie? Its not a given right To those who can cry And looking inwardly Always drove you insane So you can blame me now If it helps with the pain
And where we go to now Is so obvious and clear Paths leading anywhere Or a stop sign for here And its ironic that As my train pulls away You’ve not got a ticket And no means to pay
For Sunday Samaritan I visited Chains of Daisies and said congrats for getting married. Without wishing to sound trite I read the AboutMe section and realised that no matter how difficult or hard things are....its important to keep a sense of perspective and that there is always some hope :-)
posted by Listener at 7:13 PM
Saw this idea on Sarah's site....type "name is", including "s and see what you get....the first few for listener are heavily progrmaming oriented....but did like 'Listener is not running or cannot start external context'.....LOL sounds about right some days ;-)
posted by Listener at 11:41 AM
Blog Meet-Up, an interesting idea (thnx Gert).....will think on whether to do this :))
posted by Listener at 12:31 AM
Thanks to Shill, I used to always selct this type of character in me yoof when I once played D&D - so not much changed there then!
I Am A: Chaotic Good Elf Mage Bard
Alignment: Chaotic Good characters are independent types with a strong belief in the value of goodness. They have little use for governments and other forces of order, and will generally do their own things, without heed to such groups.
Race: Elves are the eldest of all races, although they are generally a bit smaller than humans. They are generally well-cultured, artistic, easy-going, and because of their long lives, unconcerned with day-to-day activities that other races frequently concern themselves with. Elves are, effectively, immortal, although they can be killed. After a thousand years or so, they simply pass on to the next plane of existance.
Primary Class: Mages harness the magical energies for their own use. Spells, spell books, and long hours in the library are their loves. While often not physically strong, their mental talents can make up for this.
Secondary Class:Bards are the entertainers. They sing, dance, and play instruments to make other people happy, and, frequently, make money. They also tend to dabble in magic a bit.
More work by this artist (Donna Drozda) found here, just 'cause I like them :)
posted by Listener at 1:12 PM
And just where does the time go exactly? Its half twelve already and all I seem to have done is give the girls food and drink and get dressed :)
Well there was helping with the homework and sorting out some paperwork and washing up and watching South Korea's penalty shoot-out (just the shoot-out not the whole match. Its kinda interesting watching them play, they work so hard, can run as strong in the last 5 minutes as in the first and are a really good team (something the dutch coach had to radically work on apparently because they are culturally a hierrchical people). They certainly have a lot of luck and the benfit of some close decisions but generally seem to deserve the success they are having - well done I say :))
The weather is mixed gain for a weekend, after a pleasant week its a bit overcast and showery - so we are going to the pictures this afternoon.
Tomorrow after I drop them back, I must tidy the flat, I must sort through the paperwork and I must cut the grass (else we'll have another weekend in store like a while back!).
Oh cool!! Shill, a mate from Isle of Man has set up Blog! YAY!
posted by Listener at 11:59 PM
The Ying And The Yang Of It
You draw boundaries And I’ll cross mine And where they meet will be a fine line And just on whose side is love and hate Is a thing we’ll find out If we both wait
You set out your stall And I’ll clear mine I’d rather buy than to sell moonshine And just what is saintly and what is sin Is a thing we’ll find out If we fit in
You make up your rules And I’ll break mine I’ve never been one for serving time And just what is right and what is wrong Is a thing we’ll find out Before too long
You set the standards And I’ll lower mine I’ve never towed a company line And just what is pro and what is con Is a thing we’ll find out As we move on
Hmmm what a strange couple of days. Yesterday was just the best - a few friends from work went to Ascot for Lady's Day and it was brilliant, warm, sunny, chilled, relaxed....we didn't win much, we drank a fair bit (in a measured way) and just soaked up the atmosphere - cool!
Then this morning! Oh England! You did so well, considering where we were over a year ago but so sad all the same.....I kinda really believed this time!
And now for a little moan....yes my post about being narked about work was prolly a little more detailed than maybe necessary.....but erm, this is MY space, I pay the money, I do the work, I say what I like, I have extolled the virtues of my compnay and my job from time to time, I am hugley dedicated and whatever I may be feeling will always do my best. So Mr or Mis Anonymous - please don't call me unprofessional.....this is a personal site, K? If you want to discuss it get you own!
posted by Listener at 10:08 PM
Wednesday, June 19, 2002
Screaming
Sometimes I want to unleash Let go and scream From high to low Depth of my soul Screaming Sometimes Until my breath dies And my voice cracks Until Throat-sore And Heart-raw Screaming Sometimes For all the pain The out of control The bitter times The misplaced lines Screaming Sometimes When it felt wrong When it seems right This Happy-Sad This Good-Feels-Bad Screaming Sometimes But only rarely Do I Actually Scream
Generally I think not a good day....but am trying to appreciate the nicer parts about it!
Firstly no football for first time in weeks, well a couple of weeks anyway :)
Secondly, and I never look forward to every other Wednesday, today was Mega-Meeting Day! Basically we have the customer here for two meetings every other Wednesday, technical in morning, programme in afternoon, both 3 hours + long. However because they are all in the office the intervening 2 hours are always spent in some other ad-hoc meeting or other. And I normally 'front' the first meeting to the customer, ie I talk through the issues as best all the while not really having sufficient information and knowing the (Japanese) managers either won't agree to what I am saying or it will take me 2 hours to explain it all to them and get agreement. The afternoon is quite a senior meeting but of late I seem to be almost the only one left from my company so I get to deal with all the (legitimate sometimes) moans and groans even if its not my area (see I just can't say 'look its not my job'). So I feel tired and unsuccessful and dumped upon.
But then I'm a bit off my job at the moment, I like 'demanding with a sense of achievement' jobs but this just feels demanding at the moment, it seems obvious to me where the issues are, what the problems are....we work harder not smarter and so just perpetually create more work because ewe never resolve anything. K, so I'm whining and not focussing on any positive but I just feel irked BAH :((
Oh yeah and I've been sent to Germany from Tuesday to Friday next week - super highly important, critical even, part of the project (which again is not my area) but I have been asked to go.....because then no-one who could actually make a decision has to....see that's the rub....I am useful because I will talk to the customer, fight for my company, try to explain, cajole, resolve but at the end of the day I am not allowed to be a decision maker, I cannot commit to anything....and it narks me!
I'd better stop there. Oh and my car has gone into be repaired so I have the company pool car and an emergency engine light came on on way home and there's no handbook....and I need to get to Slough in the morning because we are going to Ascot! So I can't even chill now and look forward to that because I might not get there!
And while I blog this I am aware I cannot see yesterday's last Blog on my website so no-one may actually see this one either!
Dammit!
So the nice parts? Got to see D. for a couple of hours this evening :)
posted by Listener at 10:22 PM
Tuesday, June 18, 2002
Bah! the 'net or my link is slow.....that's been a couple of toimes....hope its not sign that ntl is playing up because its been really good since I got it.
Anyhow spent time usefully tidying site some more and updating poems pages.
Not looking forward to tomorrow three meetings so bascially all day stuck in meeting rooms....but....then Thursday and Friday off. Going to Ascot Races on Thursday which'll be top and then Friday to recover and watch the football of course. Hope hangover has gone by the time I pick the girls up :))
Now I'm off to bed earlyish for me but want to read some of my book, nn :))
posted by Listener at 10:58 PM
Was very happy for South Korea but sad for Japan. And will admit to a smirk over Italy loosing - heh ;-)
posted by Listener at 7:46 PM
Oh yeah! kick back and chill....did the works tonight...
Updated my site a bit (no really....can't you tell?)!!! Made a new playlist....some real faves are in there....currently Stereophonics....see Listening To......hmmmmm!!! Finished some poems.... Surfed my fave sites...... ......and some new ones: eWe and Gert....Hey there! :))
Oh and drank some wine....but what's new......so come on then...average weekly intakes of alcohol....a new on-line quiz.....40 to beat (4 bottles x 6 units per of wine (24?) + one (good) night out(10-15) + miscellaneous = 40ish) Is that bad?????
posted by Listener at 12:01 AM
Monday, June 17, 2002
I Am Mythical
I am Promiser All that you hold dear Offering you something To wash away your fear
I am Listener All the words you use Receiver of anything In the language you choose
I am Soothsayer All that you hold true Denying you nothing Believe in them anew
I am Dreamweaver Lay them at my feet Images of everything To make you feel complete
I am Mythical Form is not this now Shifting to otherthing And never knowing how
K, so this is strange, when I go to my website from IE (it opens on Google then I select from the drop down address box), I get an older version of the page, if I 'view web page' from Blogger I get the current version with recent posts? I've tried clearing the cache. I have also updated Music To Live By but when I select it I only get the one album but I have added a second....tell me can you see it??
posted by Listener at 9:07 PM
I am totally unashamed to say I find test match cricket just ace! Sure it takes five days, sure it rains and sure it can end in a draw.....but it has everything any other contest has, it ebbs and flows from side to side, it has personal duels and it can turn on its head in a few special moments. For those unconvinced or uninitiated this match started by Englad totally dominating proceedings and amassing a very decent score with some wonderfully artistic and masterful batting. The pitch however favoured the batsmen rather than the bowlers but when Englad finally let the Lankans have a go at batting they ripped through the side not even letting them score enough to avoid the follow on (ie they had to bat again straight away rather than make England bat). They got their act together then and looked pretty comfortable to avoid defeat. Then with sri Lanka having a lead of just 50 but with only 45 minutes play left (ie a draw my friends) in comes Giles pings two in two balls and its game on. England get 36 balls to make the 50 runs to win which they did with 6 balls to spare - nice!!!
The importance is, we could have played for the draw but we WANTED to win, we never gave up. YAY the lads :))
Oh and has anyone ever heard the Brian Johnson commnetary when Michael Holding of the West Indies was batting against Peter Willy of England? His commentary was something like " And we have a change at the far end now the batsman is Holding the bowler's Willy!!' At which point Johnners realised what has been said and dissolves into hysterics for half and hour - classic!!!
posted by Listener at 8:22 PM
Oh! I wanted to be Michael Owen!
You are Rivaldo
You're one of the best players on the planet. You lead by example and you're way too refined to rake your studs down anyones shins. You do sometimes have trouble passing the ball to lesser players, though.
YAY! I have spent the last couple of hours creating a new page. Music To Live By is an idea I've had for a while, I wanted to capture some of the songs and albums that mean something to me, for any number of reasons....happy or sad! I gues many people feel similarly because I have seen similar pages/comments on other peoples sites....so if you have a song or album that's important mail me and I'll add it to the page with links.
Oh btw, it may not look hugely different in terms of layout but its taken me this long to sort out the logos, images, colours and alignments out. I have some ideas for tweaking the layout but that will have to wait - I'm off to make dinner :))
For Sunday Samaritan I sent hugs to Kacroon whose poor guinea pig, Ratty hasn't been too well, the girls are really keen on getting a pet but as I'd have to look after it for 12 days out of 14 I'm not so sure. I've kinda been thinking about a little kitten recently actually :))
posted by Listener at 5:40 PM
Have to say BIG thnx to all wishing me happy father's day :))
By some odd ironic stroke of fate it turns out that I get the girls for Mother's Day and they for Father's Day each yer! But its cool - we'll do something next week :))
posted by Listener at 5:36 PM
Bah! They lost - well played tho' boys you should be proud of yourselves :))
posted by Listener at 5:34 PM
How exciting was this!!! Come on Ireland :))
posted by Listener at 2:26 PM
Saturday, June 15, 2002
I've been learning! Simple things prolly but I learnt how to download fonts and install them for use later and I found a cool site for logo/button generation www.coolarchive.com which also has loads of fonts, backgrounds and stuff. I've also been looking at images/pictures and how to format, display etc them. The lovely Pega is motivating me, she often chnages her site design with clever graphics/images/etc and even sent me this animated GIF - how clever!
All this is for a new page I want to make so watch this space........
This morning I helped D. move some stuff out of her flat....she's moving soon and is getting quite excited methinks....and I also got rid of some junk that I have collected over the last year in preparation for me moving.....soon hopefully its taken 3 months so far to buy this darned flat!
BAh :)) Blogger-pro is funny - me's v drunked - been out with ex-worrk mates htting shots - I'll spell chekck this tomoorrow :) nn sleep well - hic :))
posted by Listener at 3:36 AM
Wednesday, June 12, 2002
Thank goodness, I found Poetess interesting but then lost the link (it was thru Blogsnob and I closed the window by mistake and then Blogsnob had changed) but a quick search on Google soon brought it up (about a poet, blogger) - YAY. Thnx to her found some interesting Moulin Rouge links including this one!!
Work was good today - had a day giving a presentation to a customer and it was really positive, rather than the usual 'difficult' meetings at work sorting out project stuff. They were really happy with the meeting and it was just good to feel like I had achieved something :))
Well done England, I didn't think it was laboured particularly, a bit dull yes but they did what they had to do and conserved energy for the next round - roll on Saturday :))
The World Cup is really interesting this time round, its not just the upsets and the early exits of the 'bigger' teams, but the fact that the whole thing is more competiive and closer! I am really enjoying it.
And I've linked Mamselle which I've been reading recently :)
posted by Listener at 9:18 PM
Monday, June 10, 2002
For Sunday Samaritan I visited Susan's site (Flowerhead) which was just really cool :)) I'm having an evening just surfing around and just enjoyed this site - and the great music links too :))
1) Do you be illin'? Actually me's pretty healthy considering the abuse I put my bod thru - I mean late nights and all...... 2) Who's simply the best? Oh several...depends at hwat ;-) 3) Do you want to party all the time, party all the time, party all the time? Now and then is more my thing! 4) Are you a maniac? Not really, foolish, irresponsible even downright narcissistic but rarely maniacal. 5) Do you believe in spirits in the material world? Is that like expensive whiskey? oh that's in the materialistic world - lol!! 6) I got my mind set on... ? Not being pissed off with work just at the mo! 7) Do you love dirty laundry? Oh yes, I love wash days, hanging it all up carefully, bringing it in and folding it into little piles and then....the ironing! Oh yes! (get the idea?)! 8) Say, say, say what you want. .....it might change your mind, the way you feel....about me - oh that's a different song altogether, k, so "I DESERVE A PAYRISE"!!!!
posted by Listener at 7:51 PM
YAY! Blogger's saving my template again - thnx for all advice and news that it wasn't just me :))
So my bubble burst a bit today - I was actually getting back into work and enjoying the challenge again (it is pretty demanding but I like that, I like being pushed) but today was annual payrise day. I'm not going to say anything other than its pitiful. I understand a need to control costs, and I know times are hard and, and, and....but I work bloody hard and I work to get the job done not to do any basic hours and I have often put work before my girls, especially in the last year....and I am a little deflated I didn't even get the average rise offered - BAH! :(
Oh and I'm getting up at 5.30am tomorrow to get to an 8am meeting to give a presentation I don't hugely udnerstand in detail (being only given it this afternoon) - like I feel motivated for that!!
I cannot edit my template - is this because blogger-pro cannot be accessed?? I am updating thru the link on www.blogger .com but everytime I try to save the weatherpixie in my template and go back in to look at it its not been saved!! Bah :(
posted by Listener at 11:59 AM
My girls are good girls....I forget sometimes when they fight or get naughty or selfish or play up.....but they are such good dirls really....theya re outside helping next door tidy the garden, yesterday Bryony did my ironing (!) and this morning I got brekkie in bed - *hugs and big smiles*
I got me a Weatherpixie, thnx Ariel, there wasn't anyone that looked like me so I went for a cool looking babe - just like on morning TV - heh ;-))
Blogger seemed to be a bit hit and miss yesterday so am catching up now. Yesterday was one of those days that just turned out excellently even though there was no real plans to start off. I got down to Mum and Dad's at 8.30 and we wnet down to a soft play park, then the girls wanted to go bowling (Bryony in particular is getting quite good at this and we discovered they have special children's bowls which made it easier for them too) and then we eventually got round to lunch around 3ish. By the time we got home it was getting late so we chilled in front of the TV and PC. It wasn't what we did so much as the fact that we all had just the loveliest time and were really close all day -so big smiles. The June weather continues to thwart my plans by being overcast and showery so we're going to go swimming this afternoon.
I found that FHM Magazine have 100 on-line games at the moment - some are silly, some are....er... 'adult' and some classic - check it out if you have some moments to spare - there's quite a good bowling game to be found as a bonus under the table tennis option :))
On 'net things I got mIRC working last night and had a play around and a look-see in some 'rooms' just listening in at the moment and finding my way around.
Oh and Pega has been giving me inspiration and advice on site layout and sent me the coolest animated picture which I'll link soon - thanks Pega! I guess I need to get a copy of a decent picture/photo package - Paint Shop Pro seems the one everyone suggests/recommends! :))
why are my posting times mucked up??? I have selected the correct option on the Blogger options and on pro.blogger.com they appear correct but on my website they are totally wrong?? Please comment with the time this post appears as posted to help me out!
posted by Listener at 12:12 AM
Friday, June 07, 2002
Ooooooh D.'s just got ICQ - heh :))
posted by Listener at 10:40 PM
Remember this:!
I'm home in time for Big Brother! YAY! Can't believe Alison's been evicted BAH!!
I left work much later than planned and get this - the meeting was cancelled (or rather they talked about something else) but there was something other important to do so...... and 'side's the girl's were in bed so I'll just get up early and go to my parent's to pick them up!
Hmmm the posted times on the pro.blogger site are ok but just noticed they are a bit wrong on site - oh well will check it later. For my sins I've a meeting at 6pm! So I've had to do a spot of rearranging with girls - Mum will collect them and I'll get down later :( Can't really complain because it is my job etc but it is more than a bit frustrating!
posted by Listener at 4:09 PM
Come on England! Even after Sunday - we believe again - roll on 12.30 :-))
I WILL grab some time at work to watch it - we have a TV room set up especially for the World Cup.
The World Cup has been cool, I've especially enjoyed the Republic of Ireland's games and results and France tribulations (lol - it nice that some other country fails to deliver for a change!) and Japan's exciting start to the competition.
Picking the girls up tonight - YAY!!
And double YAY - its eviction night on Big Brother 3!!
posted by Listener at 7:05 AM
Thursday, June 06, 2002
K, me's tired but very happy, but should have gone to bed ages ago, but wanted one last poem, but didn't go to bed after, but I did check just one (interesting) link, but it made me check more, but I didn't get to all of them, but I am tired.....AND there is always tomorrow :))
posted by Listener at 1:51 AM
Just watching BB3 - Alison girl - you're cool I'd vote to keep you in :))
The What, When and Why Of It
What did you think That I'd meant you to say? What did you hope Was the price that I'd pay?
When was the point That you think I went wrong? When was the time That I halted our song?
Why did you stop At this moment just here? Why not turn round And face up to this fear?
Well I am quite please with myself, I have found out that the scanner I am trying to install is not supported on Windows 2000 professional yet by visiting the manufacturers website. So that explains why I cannot just install it but it does seem odd that its not supported at all....hmmm a bit more checking is needed methinks.
Post-post note - K, I now know I need to download/buy a later version of Vistascan than is on CD-ROM - v3.55 - trouble is I can't buy this from UMAX website as its only for America - the UK website has some telephone numbers so may chase this up later! Feel quite please that even though I haven't got it working I have (I think) managed to sort out just what the problem is and what I need to do to sort it out!
posted by Listener at 9:57 AM
Another slightly odd guestbook signee, this one is slightly redeemed by the fact its a darned useful site with html tips and hints and advice (works for me!) and this clever little Link Speedo which tells me I am actually getting close to the 512kbps I'm paying for - tho as an engineer it winds me up when people type Kbps when the mean kbps!! So if they ever revisit k = kilo = 1000, K = 1024 and is only used in reference to 'puter memory OK??
posted by Listener at 9:29 AM
K I'm suitably tipsy enough to write some poetry! I tried to center align some of the cliques but they just don't want to go dammit! I have changed the banner lyric, good results last time, well done those who got it right but maybe it wasn't hard enough tho - but there is a new Banner Lyric Test and as ever the previous answers are posted on this link!
Oooooh lots of fireworks nearby! Must be for the Jubilee - how pretty, now 'scuse me while I turn my music up so I can hear it over the bangs!
Yesterday evening I went to dinner with D. and then to see The Time Machine - I remember hugely loving the original when I was 8 or so and this version was....ok.....at best. To ex[plain the plot was contrived and a couple of bits just didn't hang together really - I kinda felt, like with too many films these days, that they think that as long as you throw in lots of computer generated effects that make you go 'oh wow' then you're onto a sure fire winner (the current Star wars Trilogy being cases in point) - er well sorry but no it don't work for me and this certainly didn't! But it was still a fun night and we laughed about it!
Today was a lazy day but eventually got into Guildford - I was looking for a new suit to wear to Ascot Ladies Day - sort of found one but they didn't have my size! I also borught some new cd's (don't you love those 3 for 2 offers!): Depeche Mode - Speak & Spell (which I just can't get enough of - lol!) 10,000 Maniacs - mtv unplugged (which is a nice twist on a greatest hits album) and finally Freeloader - Echo Park (one of the groups I've been after for a while!).
Nice!
Ok off to write some poems and tidy my site - but if anyone wants a laugh check out Satirewire especially the pieces on The World Cup, Roborats and (girls especially will like this - but its satire ok - just 'cause it sounds right that's the point but it ain't totally true - lol) Men Do Talk About Relationships!!
posted by Listener at 10:20 PM
1) As I look back upon my life, it's always with a sense of... regret I wasn't there in '66!! 2) What are you no-no-notorious for? Loosing/drawing the first match of the world cup and making it soooo hard for oursleves! 3) Have you found what you're looking for? Not yet - we still need a decent left-side midfielder! 4) Who can that be knocking at your door? Sven asking me to play on the left-side of midfield? 5) Are you a family wo/man? Yeah I guess, everyone should enjoy the World Cup together ;-) 6) Girls just want to have... Yet another explanation of the off-side rule - LOL me jokes! 7) Some guys have all the... pies! (Britsh footie chant in case you're wondering). 8) (thanks Karen!) I'm once, twice, three times a... goal-scorer (Oh me dreams of being Michael Owen against Germany!
Its kinda funny how things seem to ripple through this blog/journal world we inhabit. On Wednesday 22nd May I posted about something strange happening net-wise and made some comments about what I felt about putting my thoughts up here for view....and on being able to read those of others. I see something similar (but unrelated) prompted Chris to do the same earlier this week.
So my Sunday Samaritan this week is a suggestion (or a plea!) if you don't like what you see, please just change channels, I guess no-one really means ever to offend anyone else but if things upset ask don't challenge, empathise don't criticise, but mostly just remember ultimately these are personal and important to their creators, they are theirs not yours, we, the readers are just allowed in from time to time, how bad would it be if they didn't exist? I'm not explaining myself very clearly so I am going to 'repost' that comment from last Wednesday:
Oh and something strange net wise happened and I don't really know exactly what but seems to be to do with censorship and honesty in on-line diaries - I've always thought my blog is my own and have pretty much written what I have wanted, what I was feeling and what kind of jumbled rambling musings have been going on inside. I think I have done less of this recently because I have felt more calmer, more settled. But if I wanted to I still would, I choose to keep the site personal, that is I don't really blog too much about other people or their problems other than to send them hugs or link them. But then in RL I wouldn't talk about other people to other people in that way either. This 'net thing, this blog thing is deceptive, you can post some stuff and get kind words, even empathy form other people, other strangers, and you become linked in some way. This is the huge up side of it all. I guess tho' there's a down side, you can neither fully express everything about you on-line, nor fully explain everything that is happening on-line. As a reader of other's sites you are a silent listener (no pun intended) to their thoughts without really knowing them. I try to remember this, especially when I see something I don't understand or even don't agree with, I try to be neutral at least, supportive at most but I always, always try to remember that they are letting me in, that is a privilege not a right - I try to respect that as much as possible. In general this whole thing is worth it and the positive outweighs the negative hugely :))
ROFL - I got a new entry in my Guestbook - from someone advertising hotels in New York - how funny, how helpful, but er why????!
posted by Listener at 4:25 PM
I watched the match round Ian's, I got up at 6.30am to watch Argentina vs Nigeria as they're in our group too - but I slept thru most of it!!!
Got home early afternoon and helped Cupid Girl (well tried to anyway - oh and she's not moved like I said yesterday - she's just set up a new blog for when she comes to UK on holiday! sorry for confucision Cupid!!!)
Then I finished off the lawn (possibly literally, because everywhere I cut yesterday is now brown and dead looking!!) and sat in the garden and read On green Dolphin Street by sebastian Faulkes one of my favourite author's. D. sent this in the post to me earlier this week because I had said (in an off the cuff remark) that I never get anything nice in the post - thnx D. its ace! :o)) xx.
posted by Listener at 4:20 PM
Saturday, June 01, 2002
Cupid Girl is moving off Blogspot to a host - good luck girl - but you won't need it I remember doing mine and it was pretty straight forward to do the move and then it needed a few tweaks to template and archive :))
posted by Listener at 3:57 PM
So I have just spent 3 hours cutting my grass because i haven't done it this year yet and it got so overgrown I have filled 6 bin bags already and there's still about one fifth still to go!!!!! But its BBQ time round a friends so I'm off to have a bath :))
btw good luck England tomorrow in footie and well done the boys in the cricket - 80+ last wicket stand YAY!!
posted by Listener at 3:44 PM
K so just had a heaps better phone call than what prompted last Blog - so am smiley all over :))
Btw - and i normally ignore anonymous stuff these days but I am intrigued - what prompts someone to post an anon comment/flooble that seems so.....er.....negative? is this Blog-Grafitti or have I missed the point somehow??
Not important just late night thought - as my scanner is kaput tomorrow is officaly Poems Day :))
posted by Listener at 3:04 AM
Excuse me a moment *scream at top of voice* - hmmm that's better - nothing to do with anything recent just Friend 1 - hey who remember her? Check poems page perhaps - anyhow had loads to blog and time's caught up wth me !!!!!!!!!!!!!
Can i just say (1.5 bottles of wine down and probably for the first time so clearly on my blog) I AM NOT ALL THAT - i think I'm an ok bloke but I have a propensity to fuck up without even knowing it! Is this my fault - well maybe I am contributary but................hmmm ok I'm gonna tell you what I think abou me just for interest sake....as I once wrote accept me reject mne just don't disect me......(cheers Odin man!).
So in order of what happens, (nothing else ok?)
1 I'm honest - ask me a question I'll tell you an answer based on what has been, what I think , what I feel................ 2 Challenge me negatively (in my perception) - I'll argue, I'll tell you where I am coming from, what I am feeling and forget it as an argument or negativity straight after. 3 Say something positvely (in my perception) - I'll deny it! 4 I'm tactless - I'll do 1 and 2 almost no matter how hard I try (but instinctively not to spite anyone) and generally disapoint people. 5 well that's it rant over dammit!!!!!! 6 Sorry just find it all so hard sometimes when I want it to be easy
posted by Listener at 1:36 AM
Spirits of love
The souls of the sad
Dance out this tango
In a minor key
Da da da da daaaaah
Take my hand
My dear
My card is marked
With your name
Step as one
This last time
Our final dance
Perfect timing
As the music dies
We take our leave More Of My Poems
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