I stepped outside from our life Into the sun’s blinding persistence All cool calm and unrequited Shedding memories like snakeskin Dry, brittle, itching to cling to me Sleeves rolled up to stop the heartburn Coat tails dragging round my heels Worn off the shoulder like a Chip from the old block Mirrored blue sunglasses Protecting the photoflash glare Not for the first time in this life I saw myself as in a shattered mirror Multiple images; shards of my life A consistently constant image Repeatedly repetitive Of the same old me
D. felt ill on the way in to work this moring and at work got straight in her car and went to her parents (2 minutes away) - not heard from her all day - hope she's ok :) xxx
posted by Listener at 9:20 PM
Do you know - I really don't have a huge amount to say at the mo - the lighter evenings are here in the UK and that makes me feel summery and happy - things are pretty good and htat's enough - gonna eat tea and chill - back later :)
posted by Listener at 7:29 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2003
Couldn't wait till morning - Oh heck - it was Cliff - I'll get my coat ;)
posted by Listener at 12:55 AM
Maybve its D not being here, maybe its the girls - but I have had a song in my head and I cannot remember any of it other than 'and these miss you nights, are the longest'.....I have a feeling its something really corny and cheesy but still its in my head - maybe I'll delete this post when I can be bothered to find out!!!!
Oh and whilst on the subject - 'Have You Ever Been in Love' - a hit by Leo Sayer but actually written (and made into a better record too) by a man and woman whose name also escpaes me who wrote all of the Bucks Fizz stuff - man I used to love that group - tho suspect that was down to adolescent lust for the girls in the band more than anything - heh ;)
K me's off to bed - tomorrow I will google these links and then hide shamefacedly :)
posted by Listener at 12:53 AM
Saturday, March 29, 2003
Walk Of Life
Life is a straight line To be walked along Straight down the middle Or near enough
Sometimes we hit the groove And the steps follow steps Faster and faster Until we are running Footsure and heart pounding A headlong rush along that line It seems as if It will never end
Other times we step off line And sway, stumble and trip Veering wildly off Wanting some stability Yet missing the groove A headlong rush out of control It seems as if It will never end
Life is a straight line To be walked along Straight down the middle Or near enough
I sat the window this evening and listened to some fireworks. I tried to imagine they were bombs and guns and what it must be like.....it didn't really work of course....maybe the element of uncertainty and fear was missing....but in these uncertain and troubled times I think those of us who live relatively safe and secure lives need to take time, sometimes, to appreciate that fact.
posted by Listener at 10:30 PM
Hmmm woke up at 6am and couldn't go back to sleep - or didn't want to so have been surfing for a while.
Just about to tidy - I like tidying - its kinda heraputic - lol!!!
Did anyone see my career? I think I lost it sometime in January - not sure where or how - lol - am feeling distinctly sidelined at the mo but hey its Friday and the weekend looms large!!!
Went swimming with D. last night - its supposed to be good for back aches but mine now hurts as mch as ever so am feeling a little stiff!!
Nothing planned tonight - am taking mum and dad out for lunch tomorrow - for Mother's Day mainly but have a huge favour to ask invovling borrowing money to get my finances strsight :/
Seeing D. on Sunday - she's off to France tomorrow with her folks.
Gonna make tea and do some surfing and turn my attention to some poetry :)
posted by Listener at 6:45 PM
Wednesday, March 26, 2003
Missing You
I miss you In ways uncounted And keenly felt I miss you waking me And putting you to bed Your carefree smiles And your laughter I miss your voices Your presence here And time together It’s a dull ache Sometimes acute Sometimes it almost fades But not really
Strange day yet nothing of note - felt a little anxious today - think its the girls thing :/
Something strange happened at work one of those chance conversations I learnt something quite important was happening but I wasn't asked my opinion - It doesn't impact on my current work so maybe not so strange yet I would suggest I am one of the more experienced people in the particular area and had been involved in it up until Christmas so it felt a bit .....odd i wasn't asked....especially as the resultant convresation demonstrated I had something to contribute that others were not aware of/hadn't considered.....hey ho each to their own and all that......I have a feeling I am 'out of favour' in certain circles - but that's fine I guess, others believe in me and particulalry myself so that's enough!!!
Just off to pub quiz - YAY :)
posted by Listener at 8:24 PM
Evening spent doing Roo's lyric quiz she sent me then making one of my own which meant I listened to some great music.....if I missed anyone off the email and you fancy a go let me know :)
Am happy mostly and that's enough isn't it?
posted by Listener at 12:36 AM
Monday, March 24, 2003
A whole weekend away from the PC - unusual for me - I was about just didn't really get around to it - lol :)
So Friday's party was ace - got to the hotel about 6ish and as D. had a room as an organiser chilled out and got changed in comfort. We were at the Radisson Edwardian Hotel near Heathrow.....the event was on the first floor which had a huge water feature and two bridges in a cross leading to the function room with a bar outside all in a huge atrium. We gathered round and drank 3g blue cocktails (blue for my company) and were entertained by one of those human statues making people jump lol.
We then went into dinner and had more entertainment; a jazz band, magicians and caricature artists whilst we ate and drank loads of wine - YAY!!!
After dinner and the statutory speeches the cabaret came on, three acts, first a Shirley Bassey lookalike (who was good) and then a Kylie lookalike (YAY!!) and finally a Robbie lookalike - by this time we were larging it on the dance floor and Robbie got me to sing the chorus of Angels - lol BIG mistake - heh :)
The evening then drifted into karaoke and disco at one end and a casino at the other (we were given £100 play money and whoever one the most won a prize - I blew it all in one hit at Black jack because I wasn't in the mood for gambling) and chat and drinks at the bar. It was just totally ace fun.....we ended up chilling in another bar after the party until 4, 4.30.
D. and another work friend Jo organised and they did such a good job - everyone thought it was ace and really well thought out and just fun!!!!
No too much to report on for the rest of the weekend D. and I came back to flat and just chilled - very very lazy :)
I noticed The Guardian picked up on the where Is Raed Blog by Salam Pax in Baghdad. I've been checking this for a week since Ripsaw spotted it last week - fascinating reading - I for one think it is real!
As for the war - not sure what to say really but feel I should - as with many major world events I find my thoughts and feelings are fairly ad-hoc - mostly centered around wishing it all could stop and things could be peaceful - yeah I know naive and idealistic. I just don't know - I think Saddam is evil, I think the regime should stop, I think the world has to be collectively responsible for such things and that yeah sometimes 'war' or military resolution is 'necessary'....although I am tempted to say inevitable there.....but....
....people are dying, suffering on huge scales is happening, and the whole bloody mess just isn't that simple.
What I really hate about tall this is the hype, the propaganda, the wall to wall media feeding frenzy, the talking, writing, televising of anything and everything 24-7 that actually, ultimately tells us very little. That's why I wrote Propaganda the other day - and the line - its not the justification but how we justify....
Since I was 13 and becoming more politically aware and The Falkalnds War (and all the bravado which I remember so hating) I have always felt that even if the war is 'justified', whatever that means....all the while we fight them on the back of political rhetoric, one up man ship and 'god is on our side' - whichever god that is.......then we can never really progress as a race......at the end of the day people die, and they die horribly and people suffer, before during and after.......I kind of wish that the war could be covered honestly and not made into some prime time extravaganza - maybe then we could actually understand what it really means!
Well that's just my view of course - I still feel for and think of everyone and anyone personally involved and touched by this conflict - I hope it stops soon and we never forget either the cost or the legacy we must try to create in its wake...........
Really really miss the girls, its funny its not just an undefined 'missing them' but I have a strong sense of the loss of their physical presence - I miss them being near and being able to hug them and give them a kiss and to watch them doing things. Quite often I will look at them, as if almost for the first time and just get this huge gush of love for them.....I miss not seeing them.
posted by Listener at 4:02 PM
My friend Ariel is the bestest ever - love you hun :) xxxx
Got a BIG work's party tomorrow night - its gonna be ace and lovely and drunked and oh so messy but I will enjoy every single minute of it :)))
Not much to say - worried baout mum, miss the girls, scared we're at war....but in all other respects am fine and have a lot to be thankful for :)
Gonna chat to the lovely Ariel a little later but as I have just been to the gym I'm starving :)
posted by Listener at 7:46 PM
Wednesday, March 19, 2003
A quick morning blog - the sun is shining the weather is sweet yeah it makes me want to move my dancing feet......which is ace because I have Salsa tonight - the lovely D. has seen my poem and Listener's happy :D
posted by Listener at 9:44 AM
Senses - for D.
Did you hear the sunrise And see my thoughts Did you feel my whispers And taste the moment
You have touched my life Overwhelmed my senses Healed my wounds And bathed me in hope
I have no words to explain Yet words are my soul You have left me in love And that’s all I need know
Quiz was good, had an ace chat with Ian after about stuff - it was good to catch up :)
Wrote this:
Propaganda
Through the green haze Of a night sight All is made accessible Hollywood style Glitz and glamour All very realistic You can almost imagine The extras getting up And going home Zoom in from afar And way off target The true horror Lies beneath the rubble And the powder puff Soundless explosions Lost in static and white noise Guilt-edged horror Wrapped in slick presentation And vital statistics That may be proved false Only after the point Has become unimportant The problem is avoided Its not one of justification But the way we justify
I still haven't quite worked out how to make pages come up 'outside' the frame tho - target="new" is the only way it seems.
Mum started Radiotherapy today :( she seems fine, always a smile has my mum, she's got 5 days worth of it - at least she's stopped the chemo now though in the short term its more unpleasant.
I don't write much other than ramblings on here and my poetry.
On the VoicesNet they occasionaly run a short storey wriitng 'challenge'....I offered this:
Black tie, dinner jacket, white scarf, I was dressed to kill but so was she, even more so. I was a goner from the moment the music lulled my eyes onto the dance floor and into hers.
All the talk of war, of the Hun, of world domination. This was here and this was now, and she was in that dress. My card was marked.
Tomorrow could wait, the call-up, the hope, the fear, and the scratchy uniform. Was it the material? The starch? Or the fact it just didn’t fit properly? Questions that didn’t really matter.
We danced like no one else was watching, I lost myself in her eyes, her hips, that dress and this moment. Later we stepped outside, London fell around us, all bright lights and dark foreboding. Lost in those eyes. Lost in this moment.
I asked her name and forgot the answer. This wasn’t about the physical, I was lost and words, time and greater moments meant nothing. For the first time I felt my eyes open and all the hope and possibility became focussed, like light through a prism. The colours split, yet the constituent parts only accentuated the wonder of the whole. Revealing each for its own radiant possibility.
Fast forward, into rain and sweat and blood and metal soaked mud trenches. Damp paper and blunt pencils, the guns’ roll marking time as I etched out my feelings. The lead ran damp and salt streaked. Cold hands, warm heart, isn’t that what they say?
I drifted, thoughts of her, backed into me as I warmed her against London chill, of her at the balcony and of her thinking of me.
Knowing we would meet again even as we made our readiness. Even as the guns rolled once more and as the whistle blew. As we threw ourselves up and over and into the night, into the wall of sound and the firework flash and the acrid smoke.
And yes, even as I threw myself into the cold steel hail and the one with my name etched indelibly on its side.
Robin Cook just went up in my estimation - not from any political viewpoint on the subject (you'll notice I don't really do politics here), but just because he had the courage to stand up honourably for what he believes in.
posted by Listener at 10:21 PM
There's a very funny prog on BB2 - Double Take (a new prog, cannot find any weblinks) - very feckin' funny - sort of fly on the wall snippets of famous people doing silly things in private - all with actors of course - its just soooo funny eg Prince Harry teching the Queen how to wave, tony in the bathroom parcticing 'we are at war' in front of the mirror and Guy trying to persuade Madge to do a sex scene - rofl :)
posted by Listener at 9:59 PM
There are just too many people I read dropping out of the blogging world. Now ok I know I don't always have a lot of time to read round and comment but I get really sad when I see someone say they're off - so I forbid anyone I read to ever go! And those that went please come back? Please?
There's a reason for this, am a bit worried about one or two of my friends whom I seem to be loosing contact with, things have been so hectic recently that its easy to let things slide - so I am gonna try extra hard not to let that happen any more :)
In other news things are fine, work is ok, interesting in fact but mostly chilled thank goodness. rest of weekend was fine - went for that walk to The devil's Punchbowl which was ace, then did a bit of shopping then came home and chilled.
Spoke to the girls, Kate is fine, bryony had had a bad day and had been told off and was upset and indignant at the world and didn't want to be in Scotland anymore - I don't think that was necessarily true she was jsut ahivng a bad day and it was easy to say! We chatted and stuff and she was happier when we said goodbye.
D. is ace, we get on so well, she makes me laugh and challenges me and is interesting and funny and just lovely. I was going to say lots more deep and meaningful stuff about relationships and about seeing things a lot clearer these days and about feeling just cool and happy and about enjoying life......but its just ace and that'll do for now :)
posted by Listener at 9:51 PM
Sunday, March 16, 2003
Yum yum - what a lovely weekend :)
The weather is gorgeous and me and D. (I like the way that rhymes) have really chilled out - we watched Red Nose Day, yesteray I got the doors and CD rack from Ikea for the units I bought at Chraistmas (!!) and a frying pan so we could have a belated Pancake Day at last.
WE're having a lazy Sunday now, taking time to get up then we're going for a walk as its a beautiful day.
posted by Listener at 12:17 PM
Friday, March 14, 2003
w00t -tiday just gets better and better - was in Wimbledon last night with the lovely Vi and we walked past the Polka Theatre and look its showing a Jaqueline Wilson play. Now if you happen to be a girl between the ages of 7 and 15, she is THE author to read - the girls love her and Bryony especially has read every single book.......as luck would have it the show runs until the 12 April which is the weekend I have them down here next, however the website declared they had sold out of all shows - oh no! - but I just called them and they have opened an extra show on Thursday 10th April - the day they fly down and i got tickets. YAY!
Who's the daddy? Can't wait to tell them :)
posted by Listener at 1:51 PM
Have it!!!! Just heard that Didn't We got selected for the Anthology IV competition - feckin YAY I am so chuffed because I was secretly worried it hadn't got through and its one of my favourites, and I think best poems - so feckin YAY w00000000t :))) xxxxxxx
Salsa is cool - I threw a bit of a panic attack when D. said we'd be splitting up as she was going into itermediate class - for some reason I started feeling hugely self ocnscious and embarrased - but t'was ok and the people I were with were ace - they were 5 lessons into a 6 week cycle so it was a little more advanced than absolute beginners but it was cool and am looking forward to next week :)
I am seeing the lovely Vi tonight to catch up and then its the weekend tomorrow - YAY :))
posted by Listener at 4:55 PM
Wednesday, March 12, 2003
one more thing - how in hell did I end up on here???????
And at last some interesting Google searches have found me:
YAY! I've made it at last :)
posted by Listener at 12:02 AM
Tuesday, March 11, 2003
Am off to bed - thanks for all comments of concern - I don't suffer from headaches generally - I think its just the start of a cold and stuff - it did hurt but don't think it anything 'too serious'.....if this post ends with a repeated line of random keystrokes you'll know it was and I have crashed on my keyboard - lol ;-)
(oooh its kinda temtping to do that anyway - *mwah ha ha!*)
posted by Listener at 11:57 PM
So this is the kind of thing I have been trying to do with my poems.........
Am feeling better - I slept for a couple of hours earlier which helped - my heads less rattly now :)
I watched Vanilla Sky earlier and hugely enjoyed it - way better than I expected as some critiques didn't seem to rate it - its up there in one of my all time faves now - I expected a dark techno/business thriller - which on one level it is but really its a love story and a darned fine, if sad, one at that. Ms Cruz is shimmering in it and has a gorgeous freckle - heh (er you have to see the film to get it) but am I the only one to not find Ms Diaz all that sexy? Beautiful, talented and a darned fine actress...but she just doesn't do it for me.
Hmm well that was a subtle and inspired piece of film critique - rofl - but it is a well acted, directed, tight, tense, suspenseful film so watch it if you haven't yet - and it has an ace soundtrack too :)
Other stuff I've been doing on the 'net of late:
This was quite a cool site to check who's linking you - prolly more informative for businesses as I just got back a list of my readers and cliques.....tho didn't dig too deeply into the results.
I downloaded PhotoPlus which is pretty good, I want to start creating picture/poem montage things so I can lay that part of my site out better - and this looks just the ticket - I actually splashed out the $20 for the latest version after playing with the freebie download :)
Installed Ad-Aware and checked my PC for spy-ware type nasties (I had 127 unwanted things) as I sometimes get a little paranoid about that type of thing :)
I brought some printer cartridges from PriceStorm which was hugely competitive (though I went for non-printer manufactures cartridges - will see if they're any good) and does DVDs and stuff too.
Looked at a couple of broadband sites: Johnny Broadband and Broadband Reports which are quite useful and interesting directories for the high bandwidth user :)
Really really want an MP3 Audio Key - dunno why I just do - I can justify the memory stick bit as it'll be easy to transfer stuff between work and home 'puters, the MP3 bits just cause I like listening to music :)
Does anyone read Web User Magazine? I think its quite cool - 99p a fortnight and full of useful addys and links - like a fair bit of the above - its not so much that one cannot find websites on the web (eventually!) its just sometimes kinda knowing what to look for!!!
Me and D. are going to Salsa class tomorrow - I love dancing and think I am ok dancer - but more freestyle - that said D. and I dance together very well - I have always wanted to be able to dance properly - but am not sure she realises just how much effort its gonna take to make my 'freeform' thrashings fit a dance style - rofl :)
posted by Listener at 6:06 PM
Ugh - I went to bed with splitting head ache - real brain rattler - all on my right side from the base of my neck up and over to my right eye! I've been asleep about one hour and just had a weird vivid dream....not sure it was a nightmare but so vivid I could actually feel the emotions during the dream - it was too real perhaps??!!? I remember being a little scared as I drifted off, about the headache, not sure if that's why this happend.......
There was a whole startrek kinda thing going on. I was down a tunnel, out of contact with my ship being 'hunted down' by this thing, I was scared and then got to the end of the tunnel, I was in a pressurised space suit and this 'thing' kept coming, as it drew closer I realised it was a .....child of some sort, I wasn't scared, it seemed...lost....confused, not particularly threatening though I did still want to escape it, to run past it and away. Up top similar things were happening, crew members were being taken over by these beings but were also starting to work it all out too.
Up top, it was night, moonbright night. Then I was up top too, I think I had been taken over by the creature. There was a strange feeling of being mentally linked to my people, we were all moving toward something. A quickening, a coming together of some special time and place. I was running down a country lane, trying to catch up with someone. I was screaming in my mind for my daddy, asking what was happening, asking for him to stop, to wait, asking what was happening. This screaming is very very vivid and stays with me know I have awoken.
There was some odd cut-in moments from the bridge of a ship, something about them finally understanding what was going on....not too sure about this bit.
As I ran I hit something.....I was a bit confused and kept running then hit it again and held it, a tiny piece of something.....hard....plastic? I was still screaming 'daddy, what's happening?' but not out loud, in my head. I had a strange feeling, when like the dream surfaces to reality, as you wake up, all these things were coming together and I suddenly realised what it was all about....although I cannot remember what it was but it felt like some kind of joining, melding, transition...birth, I think I thought that it would be ok, that this piece of....something I was holding was the whole point.
Then I woke up, I'm still not sure if it was a good thing or a bad thing that was going to happen, if it was a dream or a nightmare. I feel disquiet, confused, emotional. These vivid dreams I've been getting recently are odd, they happen in the first hour I sleep and always wake me up with a start.....this is maybe the 4th or 5th in the last 6 to 8 months. Normally D. is there, I wish she was now......
I still have a headache.
posted by Listener at 2:00 AM
Monday, March 10, 2003
The rest of my weekend? rofl - didn't do very much at all -D. and I are saving for Copenhagen so didn't go out Saturday and lazed around Sunday mostly. Spoke to the girls and they're ok, had a really nice long chat which was good.....got a photo from Kate today and a card she made.....
Dear Daddy, I really, really miss you. School is great and the house is FABULOUS. On Friday and Saturday my room had tools all on the floor. I was sleeping on my bed at last. Love you loads, Katherine PS I was crying Friday because I missed you. posted by Listener at 8:37 PM
Saturday, March 08, 2003
My flat is quite tidy - I like having a tidy flat - its not toally tidy - there are still a few piles of paperwork kicking around - because I am not that tidy - and I guess in a day or so there'll be some washing up on the side, some clothes on the floor in my bedroom and 'stuff' around in the lounge - but for now its itdy - YAY!
Applied for a loan on-line - cheaper interest rates but I got rejected for one the other day - the problem is with on-line applciations it can look a bit mnarginal and you can't always fully explain your circumstances in all the neatly laid out forms and drop down menu options - still we will see.
A quick cup of coffe and a short trip to the shops then ts time to tidy me 'puter -way more rewarding than tidying the flat lol.
Am not going to do the gym my back is stiff today - feel lazy about that but oh well.
posted by Listener at 12:41 PM
Elemental
Wind The faster The stronger All the more better Snatch my breath And catch my soul
Rain The harder The wetter All the more better Clean my thoughts And wash their toll
Sun The warmer The brighter All the more better Burn my nightmares And make me whole
I stand still arms wide High up and outside Receiving the elements’ gift Natural high on which I drift
I don't have to....work this weekend!! oh double yeah :D
Just got food supplies in and mopped the kitchen floor....well I knocked over a cold cup of coffee so had to really.
Tonight is chilled me time - I just love me time, just love being at home on my own......tomorrow am gonna do some 'puter stuff then go to gym (but at the mo my resolve is waning on that one!!) meet D. have a chilled Saturday doing we don't know what yesterday and then pretty much the same on Sunday.
As there hasn't been a weekend since mid-October that I either haven't had the girls, worked at least one day or been answering phone calls from home - I feel feckin' toptastic at the thought of this - heh :)))
Hugest hugs to dearest Roo, am glad at least you're 'home' honey - hope you find some comfort xxx
posted by Listener at 6:57 PM
Wednesday, March 05, 2003
Uh huh! Oh yeah!
its Paul Weller night on winamp :)
posted by Listener at 11:22 PM
Just popped this up onto the Voicesnet forum and thought it need to be here too.....
What makes a poet?
I am a poet.
I am Listener, The Poet.
In everday real life I am a father, a boyfriend, a project manager, a friend, an 'everyday Joe'.
In my heart I am a poet.
I have no learning in this field, I have no technical knowledge of great substance, nor even any huge vocabularly or mastery of language. Before I was a poet I would have said I was a (hopeless) romantic, I was just someone making my way in life.
Then I wrote a poem, now its all different, now I have tuned into something else, I know now why I love the weather, I know now that I do I love the weather, it was not apparent before, I know why I love music, why I feel emotions, why I care, and yearn and hunger, and seek and feel angry, and despair, and get sad.....
I know so many things because I can write them down, because I am a poet......when I became a poet my persepctive changed, treality shifted imperceptably and now I see in words, i rarely experience anything without wanting to write a poem.....even when I can't find the words, i still want to......and i want to seek out poetry to express what I can't when I can't.
So why are you a poet? posted by Listener at 10:59 PM
I have been thinking of this poem for a while now, i think its just about right (for me - lol) - I have to thank Ariel, my muse for inspiring a few blanks I was struggling to fill - but then that's why she is mymuse, and D., because she is why I wanted to write it :) xxxx
My Idea Of Love
This is my idea of love Its really easy We meet We fall in love We do not know for how long We do not know where it ends We do not know who we’ll be we do not care Except for each other The wind knows The stars know Time knows The long dried tears on the ground know But we don’t And I want us not to worry I want us to love To consume every moment With the passion of these words And this touch And this kiss I hope one day I wake up next to you And then remember I am eighty So I can reminisce fondly While you half wake Smile, remembering all of it too If time chooses it is sooner At least we had this Our time If we hadn’t How much less would we be So don’t worry Like the song “Everything’s gonna be alright” We are now Now is forever Now is always This is my idea of love
It woke me up and was unsettling........it was violent - there was a dark 101 Dalamation thing going on - people were missing in a sinister police state that seemed to be South Africa but was actually at the shops at the top of my road when I was a kid - I was looking for them and was close to getting caught up by some thick necked agressive 'policemen', not in uniform but they were police, bent ones, it turned violent as they closed in on me but I 'escaped' and went to the gangleaders house to face them off....narrowly missing capture by Cruella D'ville (complete with green smoked cigarette) - then I was in a jumbo jet flying home from a reality TV show of some undisclosed nature in some unremembered country....the jet flew low, 20 feet over houses and along roadways with cars and trucks and even underwater -which was very beaufiful - there was a woman there I fancied.....we later went swimming under the same water.....we did kiss but I don't think she was interested - we were trying to hold our breath for a long time in a competition to win the people who were missing back - then she was laying in a bed in a large room and the baddie came in and threw 10 sharp edged trowels on the floor and we fought to the death to be the first to pick up six of them, but his henchman helped him - I wasn't doing to well but think I was still gonna save the day (true to all heroic events) when I woke up.
posted by Listener at 6:33 AM
Lean on me, when your not strong, I'll be your friend, I'll help you carry on........
You do just have to love music don't you - I mean................
Give me the songs That make me cry Make we laugh Or want to try That give me hope When I want to die Or show me the sun And fill my sky
ooooh that's a bit Abbaesque - one more time......
so I say thank you for the music, the songs I'm singing.....
Hmmm maybe its time for bed - had an ace catch up chat with the gorgeous Airel tonight - *hugs* babe :) xxx
posted by Listener at 12:21 AM
Monday, March 03, 2003
So changed my banner quiz - only 10 trys this time - maybe not so easy as Eminem - lol
I know nothing is changing but its gone, its really gone. I know its not really life till its gone wrong, but there must be a reason - t'was Sleeper!! A hauntingly beautiful song.
See how you fare with the new one ;)
posted by Listener at 11:53 PM
For those that care - this poem really has no relevance to my state of mind at the mo - I just like the words and the image - Vicky is someone on VoicesNet whom helped me finish it off when I replied to one of her beautiful poems :)
Tango For One
Spirits of love The souls of the sad Dance out this tango In a minor key Da da da da daaaaah Take my hand My dear My card is marked With your name Step as one This last time Our final dance Perfect timing As the music dies We take our leave
We went to see Yamato at the Peacock Theatre in London. Here is a bit on Taiko - its a very old artform - based around a variety of drums sizes - traditional drums rather than 'modern type - mostly double ended ranging from tiny 12 inch ones to massive 6 foot round ones - there were 9 performers - 4 blokes, 5 women - all supremely fit athletes - all sinew and muscle but graceful and co-ordinated and wonderful - they blended tradition well with an 'international' audience - in turns funny, moving, amazing and just totally beautiful - they had a few other instruments too like the Shami-sen - and they also vocalised too - not just singing but also guttural extensions to the drumbeats - and (according to D.) shots of 'oh yeah' and 'do it' type stuff :)
I cannot do this justice - you had to be there - its not music, its not dance, its not percussion - its a fusion of feelings beaten out to a rhythm you feel as much as you hear - you don't see performers and hear sounds but experience a sensation - in a sense this is the essence of Taiko - it is about the "beat of life" - the rhythm of the soul - the group are from Nara the ancient capitol of Japan where Japanese culture is supposed to have started.
All I'll say is they are touring the UK - check it out if you get the chance :)
posted by Listener at 10:10 PM
Good day - work was ok, D. is soooo excited about Copenhagen and kept emailing me stuff about it - heh - we are staying here but may change if we find another one we like the look of :)
Went to the gym - 3 times this week is the plan, roll on Wednesday.
And i spoke to the girls and they had a really good day at school and were very happy, Kate in particular sounded very upbeat - I guess things are a little elss unsure for hger which is good :)
Some photo's I've been meaning to post up:
Me and D. at New Year.
Me and D. at Ascot last year.
Me and the girls.
The girls in my car last weekend.
The girls last year on holiday - I really love this one of Katherine.
By the way this was why I was working so feckin' hard last year -and if you do read to the bottom where it says....."the first 3G network in the British Isles......is already operating.....on the Isle of Man."? Well that was me too....with the help of some others of course.......despite any frustration I may let show from time to time I am actally very proud of my company's achievements :)
The Taiko Drumming was just amazing am going to write about it tonight because I want to do it justice and find some links :)
Huge YAY - D. and I are going to Copenhagen at Easter - we booked it last night ont he internet Expedia which is a very good site for travel - and somewhere else for the hotels (will also link them tonight) that D. has used and said was (and which is) very good :)
I am hugely gutted at England loosing to Australia again - I really thought we had them this time - but hugely enjoyed Liverpool doing Man U in the Worthington Cup - HAVE IT!!!
The girls called me last night - they're doing ok, the house isn't totally finished yet so they are in a state of hardly unpackedness - sleeping on uncarpeted flooors and stuff. Chatted to Bryony about stuff for a while - she seemed happy and cool and ok, then with Katherine who just wanted to make the call last forever, we were singing songs and just being silly and she kept saying she missed me and is nervous about school and stuff.. It ironic - I really thought their reactions to the move would be the other way round - Kate would be cool and Bryoy all down. I'm thinking of them hugely today as they start school - espeicaly Katherine - she'll be ok i know but also really nervous and shy and will feel uncomfortable to begi with :(
Actually its ok, its only till 3 and then I'm going to the gym and then out to see some Taiko (sp) drumming with D. and some of her mates :)
Tomorrow will be a lazy morning, a bit of work, and a lazy afternoon with D. :))
Got a list of things I want to do:
Post up latest poems onto my poetry pages I've been talking to JJ at Voicenet about helping with the Forum Admin - cool :) I really want to visit the Poetry Cafe sometime soon. D. and I are planning a get away over Easter which is exciting huge YAY :) I have the girls next on 9th Arpil - seems a long way off at the moment but guess it will soon fly by. I'm going to the Isle of Man at the end of April - :D
Oh that reminds me i must sort my summer hols with the girls out :)
posted by Listener at 10:52 AM
Spirits of love
The souls of the sad
Dance out this tango
In a minor key
Da da da da daaaaah
Take my hand
My dear
My card is marked
With your name
Step as one
This last time
Our final dance
Perfect timing
As the music dies
We take our leave More Of My Poems
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